My 26-year-old Female Tenant

The light from the headlights turned the warning license plate in front into the brightness in the night, dotted with the night, but reduced to the rear in a blink of an eye. In the exchange of the front and the rear, I couldn’t perceive how long the 60 kilometers were. My heart has been burned to carbon in the uncontrollable anxiety. I wish I could follow the light of the car and reach the place I want to go in a second, and I am afraid that that place is a scene that can destroy me...

  What is behind human nature? Is it necessary to trample on the premise of success? ...... Corresponding to Mi Cai and I sinking into hell, is Fang Yuan climbing up to heaven with a group of people with ulterior motives?

A few hundred meters away, I finally saw an SUV parked on the emergency passage. The light of the flashing lights at the rear seemed to be a kind of call to me, calling me back to reality, telling me , she is safe, the reality is not cruel enough to make me give up this world...

My speed was getting slower and slower, and finally I stopped behind the red q7, and I turned on the double flashing lights, but I didn't have the courage to get out of the car, and I just watched her standing on the side of the high-speed guardrail, hanging on my chest The scarf, with her hair, fluttered, stopped, and fluttered in the cold wind, and she didn't take my arrival to heart, her hands were always in her pockets, still, looking at the darkness wrapped The boundless distance... Her profile is full of calm and tired sadness.

After all, I have to face her. I opened the car door and walked to her side lightly, with a thousand words in my heart. I don’t know how to talk to her. I know she is in pain. Sometimes the pain reaches a certain level. I don’t need to vent through tears anymore, I just want to stand alone and feel the distance between life and death alone. The longer I stand, there will be no clear boundary between death and life...Life or death is just a matter of life. I have experienced this kind of feeling in just one thought. When the heart is dead, I don't care about the death of the body!

  I hang my head down, I want to talk...

  She didn't look at me, and finally asked, "Zhaoyang, did you hear the singing in the car?"

  I just noticed that the singing sound from her car was not too loud, it could even be ignored in the whistling wind, maybe only she who was meditating could hear it...

  I heard some melodies clearly, and said: "It's Priscilla Chan's Song of Thousands of Ques!"

   "Well, people who were born in the 60s and 70s love this song..."

I don't know why she wants to talk to me about this, she is not as heartbreaking as I imagined, and I don't know what this song that is playing sequentially in her car symbolizes and represents at this moment .

   "Zhaoyang, go to the car and turn up the volume, you're here, I can hardly hear you..."

  I opened the car door and turned up the volume...But driven by extreme worry, I still said to her: "Let's go, let's go back to Suzhou, it's too unsafe to park here!"

Mi Cai finally looked at me and said, "It's not safe here. Every time I pass by here, I don't have the courage to take a second look... But tonight, this is the safest place... ..Dad, he left here, standing here, he should be the closest to his current world, right?"

  Her words sting me, I dare not look at her face, I regard escape as a salvation in desperation!

   "Zhaoyang, give me a cigarette..."

  I didn't know what she was going to do, but I took out a cigarette and put it in her hand.

   "Light it up for me..." Mi Cai put the cigarette between her fingers into her mouth, but it was so uncoordinated, her crystal-clear appearance couldn't control the roughness of the tobacco!

  Mi Cai always knew which pocket I used to put my lighter in. She easily took out the lighter, lit a cigarette for herself, and then leaned against the guardrail, sat on the ground, and listened to the song intently.

She doesn't know how to smoke, she just puts the cigarette between her fingers, she doesn't blame me, and she doesn't say anything related to tonight, but my mood has been pierced by her appearance, I would rather she tear me, Call me a fool! .....I am indeed an idiot! I couldn't tell the truth from the fake, and I couldn't tell the good from the bad in human nature. It was me who pushed Mi Cai into the abyss.

When the smoke was about to burn to the end at her fingertips, she finally put it in her mouth and took a sip, but she couldn't move the smoke that represented emptiness out of her mouth with ease, so she coughed violently and tears fell down like this .

I took the cigarette **** out of her hand, extinguished it, threw it under the guardrail, and looked at her. I couldn't cry, and I couldn't admit my mistake, because the mistake was too outrageous, and I didn't dare to forgive these two with her. Character.

But she doesn’t seem to hate me, and she is still trying to communicate with me. She told me that Mi Zhongxin always liked to smoke while listening to this popular song in the early 1990s when he was too tired to work. "Song of a Thousand Thousand Ques", so she has to imitate Mi Zhongxin.

  I hugged my head in pain, I didn’t dare to listen to her talk about the past and everything about Mi Zhongxin, the more she talked, the more painful she was, and the more guilty she felt for not keeping Mi Zhongxin’s entrustment.

   "Zhaoyang, can you understand the lyrics in the song?"

Of course I know that this song, which is remembered by an era, expresses the beauty and sadness before parting. I was so afraid that I would collapse, I hugged her tightly, and said with a sob: "I was wrong... ..I was really wrong...I beg you not to punish me by leaving, give me a chance to redeem..."

  Mi Cai shook her head.

"If you must leave...I will die in front of you, anyway, it's a farewell, I don't care what way!" I said incoherently, I couldn't bear the pain that reality gave me, I didn't After knowing that she left, I felt guilty and unbearable pain, how to continue to survive... On the way here, I have already thought about it, I am not afraid of death, I am only afraid that she will bring hatred Say goodbye to me.

In her silence, I became more and more flustered... Finally, I couldn't bear it anymore, and I held her arm and cried bitterly: "...I know I am a useless man, I am not worthy You, hurt you too... But I really didn't want to make things like this... Don't leave me, I still have hands, my limbs are sound, no matter what I do, even if Go to work as a coolie, and I will support you, and I won't let you suffer any more...don't leave, okay?...I beg you, beg you!"

I cried, and Mi Cai finally cried too... We have been together for so long, we have feelings, and she will also be reluctant to part with me as a waste, but this kind of feelings can be stopped in this earth-shaking change What?

If Mi Cai is unwilling to be reconciled to Zhuo Mei, she will definitely get rid of my burden, and compete with Mi Zhongde, Mi Lan and his daughter for the ownership of Zhuo Mei... Here, it will not be the end of her life in Zhuo Mei. It will be the beginning of another painful experience.

  Mi Cai wiped away my tears with the back of her hand, choked up and said, "Zhaoyang, don't cry, let alone die.....we all have to live a good life!"

  I was torn apart, this seems to be a gift before parting......

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