The Trembling World

The brothers are very concerned, many posts in the book review area asked, let's talk about it here. Last night, the book collection broke 100,000, and this morning it was broken 3,000. It is estimated that there will be a boutique badge next Monday.

This kind of thing should be happy no matter how happy it can be, but my heart is a bit bitter.

At the beginning of the month, the new version of the monthly ticket red envelope activity was originally planned to invest thousands of dollars to try, but after the start, it was like a gambler who entered the casino to bet on the red eye. There was no way to close it. Start with 1,000 or 2,000. Land recharge, then hundreds or hundreds of land recharge, and then 200 or 100 land recharge.

As soon as I saw that the red envelope was taken out, I continued to recharge and issued the red envelope very numbly. I didn't dare to think about how much money was charged, and I didn't dare to think about the result. After spending all the money in Alipay, I withdrew the balance in Baoli. After seven days of settlement, I found out that the two accounts were recharged for a total of 17,455 yuan, and all were sent clean. .

The sixth place on the monthly ticket list finally got the result of ordering 3,000 today.

This month's manuscript fee is definitely not filling the debts. Such a large investment means that the old devil has worked hard to code the whole month, and has not earned a penny of income, just to gamble on an uncertain future.

What the future holds, I don't know.

I do n’t know if, like in the original "Taunt", the manuscript fees earned can not even cover the money invested. It is really ridiculous to write a few thousand dollars for a few months.

I always wake up inexplicably when I go to bed these days, regret my urge to start at the beginning of the month, worry that the bamboo baskets will be empty, and when I wake up during the day, I shouldn't regret what I did, forcing myself to calm down to code.

The old devil has been writing books for almost nine years and has achieved nothing. Now that he is older and his health is not good, he is afraid that kidney failure will continue to be serious. One day, he can no longer continue to code. The desire to come out is stronger than ever. This book is also the last bet, and all the net worth want to bet.

Lao Mo is a person with a very weird personality. IQ is very high, reaching more than 140, but the emotional intelligence is very low. In real life, you do n’t have a friend. Do n’t believe it. It ’s true that you do n’t have a friend. I ca n’t control my emotions when I am angry, I am very irritable, and I have a bad relationship with my colleagues while working, and I have been driven out in several places.

My wife often tells me that no one except me can bear my bad temper, and no one wants to live with me.

She was right.

Now I have mixed writing circles, and I have no friends. In the eyes of other writers, I am a clown, an alternative, and a very annoying person. Every time I am mentioned, it is a variety of verbal abuse. .

But I don't care.

Because my whole life has failed, there are more people who hate me, and I don't care about those more.

I just continue my struggle, I want to make money by writing, I want to make a lot of money, I want to go home beautifully and tell my parents in their 70s ~ www.NovelMTL.com ~ Your son is not what you think It ’s a mess and nothing happened. I want to drive the luxury car to the mother-in-law ’s house and throw a red envelope of tens of thousands of dollars to the relatives who chewed the tongue. No longer feel ashamed.

It is a dream, a dream that will never be realized.

But I am still struggling for this dream, maybe these struggles are all futile, maybe until the day when I die, I can't get ahead, can't have the scenery I want.

But I'm still struggling.

As long as I don't die, I will continue to struggle.

Over the years, thanks to your company, I have been able to persevere. Even if the whole world has given up on me, you are still like my wife, staying with me, tolerating my irritability, tolerating my uncle, Tolerating my irresponsibility, tolerating my fragility, and tolerating all my shortcomings have always given me encouragement and support, so that I can continue to struggle and dream to this day.

thank you!

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