The Healer Banished From The Party, In Fact, Is The Strongest

"Ha, ha,... I, for God's sake"

I was surprised that Mr. Laust was on Mr. Siege's side, minutes after he got upset and escaped.

I was exhaling rough deep in the city.

My breath is painful because I came all the way to this place at full speed, and people around me are looking suspiciously at me.

... but now I couldn't afford to be aware of them.

Because of the lack of acid, it was an earlier event, meeting Mr. Laust, that came to mind in a hazy way.

That's what I should have been eager for.

Never much, but yesterday I went to the labyrinth with Mr. Sieg and the others and I got some savings.

From that moment on I was taking action to find Mr. Laust.

Of course, to give Mr. Laust the savings I've got.

But all of a sudden I was upset by the encounter.

When I met Mr. Laust, I panicked at the unexpected because I imagined over and over again how to apologize and how to show my willingness to make amends.

......... and I got away from that place.

At first, if I had been entirely aware of Mr. Laust's presence, I would not have been in a panic.

But that's when I was angry at Mr. Sieg for telling him I was to be excluded from the Phoenix crusade, and I was narrowing my horizons.

Because it's nothing but suicide, like challenging Phoenix to fight, except for me in the rear guard.

"... why, like this"

... but I had intense regrets about acting as an emotion.

At the earliest, there is no man with me to atone for.

Those humans betrayed me and fled...

"Shh!"

It was then that I suddenly became nauseous.

I rush into an invisible alley and hold my mouth.

"Huh..."

Ultimately, although I never spit out the contents of my stomach, I never felt worse.

I told the lightning sword men, "Let's make amends."

That was never the word I told you without thinking about it.

Because I knew as much as I knew that the lightning sword humans wouldn't be good people if all that happened.

And I was terribly distressed when I also found out that if I let you into Mr. Lyla's party, you wouldn't have to struggle another time to get it off the bottom.

─ ─ But still, the fact that I was invited by the lightning sword to become first class never disappeared from me.

That was a big deal for me.

Until then, I was a man of the bottom, and the lightning sword pulled me up like that.

For example, no matter what its heart is.

So I decided to start all over again from the bottom, trying to repay the lightning sword.

... Yet that feeling of mine was trampled in the worst possible way.

"How?"

Every time I think about that time, I feel like I'm going to be covered in something black.

Something black, like condensed emotions.

"... I don't have time to think about this"

I try to distract myself from that feeling.

By having the obsessive notion that I have to make amends, I try to keep me.

"Oh, I finally found it"

"... Huh?

At the next moment, my thoughts were to be interrupted by a familiar voice that sounded in an alley where no one was supposed to be.

In the direction of my voice, I raise.

"Narsena,?

─ ─ And I crushed the name, bewildered by the human figure who was there.

◇ ◆ ◇

A few minutes after I met Mr. Narsena, I had been taken to a vacant land unpopular with her.

On that road to the vacant land, Mr. Narsena did not try to talk about anything.

And to what that Mr. Narsena looked like, I had an imagination of what I would be doing now.

... Perhaps Mr. Narsena is trying to get back at me.

Mr. Narsena is famous in the Adventurers Guild for being a lover with Mr. Laust.

And also that Mr. Narsena does not tolerate anything that treats his lover, Mr. Laust, unfairly.

There's no way she can forgive someone like me.

I don't know what I'm going to do now, but it's never going to be easier.

But knowing that, I never messed up.

Because I knew it was a natural reward.

No matter what anyone does to you, it's only a natural punishment.

... But contrary to that expectation of mine, Mr. Narsena, who reached the vacant land, never did anything but sit back on a stone.

Just turn your gaze around like you're asking about this one.

"... nothing, don't you?

I was unexpectedly asking about Mr. Narsena's condition.

"I just came to warn you"

"... Huh?

In response to my words, Mr Narsena said so succinctly.

But for a moment, I didn't know what the word meant.

Out of agitation, I leak a missing voice between them.

"Don't be obsessed with making amends to your brother. You won't stop trying to use your brother anymore."

"Become!?

... but to the next Narsena's words, I understood everything and my blood was drawn from my face.

Obsession with making amends, I didn't mean to be doing that.

Nevertheless, when Mr Narsena told me so, I could not deny the words.

The only thing that comes to mind is myself, conscious of making amends, to forget about the lightning sword.

Instead of obsession, it's an ugly act, like you could call it dependency.

And to myself for doing that, I couldn't hide my agitation.

"Nothing. I'm not going to get my hands on you. Because what your brother wants from you is that you are irrelevant, not revenge, not atonement. But stop trying to get involved from you."

... As I foresaw that feeling, Mr. Narsena overlaps words like that.

To that word, at the earliest I could not raise my face against Mr Narsena.

I am driven by shame and the urge to disappear from this place with pity.

"Don't involve me in the untrained, you can't help it"

".................. Huh!

... but in the next moment Narsena's words, the emotion was to turn to anger.

─ ─ As stupid as it was to have been involved in the lightning sword, I understood enough.

Mr Narsena's words would be the truth itself.

I believed in a man I should not trust and was betrayed as a result.

With such eyes in sight, I still can't crack the lightning sword thing, from Mr. Narsena's point of view, I would only look dumb.

Even with that in mind, I was unable to contain my passion.

Desperately, I try to contain my emotions.

Because I knew this was a misguided eight.

... but at the next moment I couldn't contain my emotions and kept my mouth open

"What do you know about me?"

The next moment I shouted, it was intense regret that spread to my chest.

Even though the other person's words aren't anything wrong, he shouts them with eight hits.

I made that someone this one was supposed to apologize for.

I can't complain about this anymore, no matter how demeaning it is.

"... Huh?

But contrary to my expectations like that, Mr. Narsena was calm himself.

To me, despite the irrational eight hits, there was not even anger in its face.

What was floating in Mr. Narsena's face instead was a pitiful glance at me.

"Become!?

I never thought I could turn that look on, I couldn't hide the upset.

I'm not even close to Mr. Narsena, because there's no reason to be pathetic like this.

"I don't mean to disparage you, but you can't be trapped in it now."

Mr Narsena, who glanced at me upset, told me so.

"What you have to do now is tie you up untrained or make amends."

I could not understand Mr. Narsena's words and their meaning.

I know it's not a good idea not to shake off untrained or obsessed with atonement.

But I can't think of anything I have to do right now.

"Huh? What does that mean..."

To clear up that question, I turn to Mr. Narsena.

But Mr. Narsena didn't show me how to listen to any of my words.

Ignore my words and move those shaped lips.

"Those of you who are party members have said that we will take all the rewards of Phoenix's joint crusade to get a place where you can apologize to your brother."

"─ Huh!

... and finally to that Narsena word I understood what she wanted to tell me.

In my head, I come back to see Lila and Sieg, who were worried and looking out for me and trying to cheer me up.

There was no way I could understand how much of a deficit that would be, handing over all Phoenix's rewards to Mr. Laust and the others.

But still, to get me back on my feet, Lila and Sieg tried to give up the reward.

... Yet on the other hand, I couldn't care less about the two of you at all, just about myself.

I even forgot to ask Mr. Lyla to support me during the Lightning Sword Age.

I had a buddy trying to support me, trying to help me, but I wasn't aware of him at all.

But not anymore.

I really am a child who can't help it.

I was blinded by what I couldn't do again, and I was about to lose sight of what was most important.

But now I know.

How much Lila and Sieg cared about me.

And how important are those two?

... yet, the lightning sword thing is smoking in my chest, and something black, sitting in me with a great presence.

But still, I finally realized what I had to do now, so I wasn't going to stop anymore.

"Well, thank you, Narsena!

And to Mr. Narsena, who made me realize that, I bowed my head greatly.

"I don't think I can do it right now. But still, I will definitely make amends to Mr. Laust for what he has done so far. And a thank you to Mr. Narsena. Thank you so much!

Mr. Narsena nods small at me screaming like that.

And to make sure of that, I ran out to Mr. Sieg and the others.

"First, I need you to allow me to crusade Phoenix..."

The footprint was so light that it was not comparable to earlier.