46 – Loyalty to you (8)

Yuuna was pacing around the room differently than usual late at night.

It was soon time for Beryl to come, as she had ordered. He had to be punished.

Although Yuna said she would punish her, Yuna actually didn’t know what punishment to do.

Are you going to cut off his head mercilessly like you did before?

That didn’t work. He was one of the few people who was on Yuuna’s side right now, and he had never thought about wishing for him to die in the first place.

So should I curse and beat him all night long?

That wasn’t it either. I didn’t really want to hit him and see him in pain.

Actually, I didn’t call him with a specific punishment in mind.

I was just dissatisfied with him for something, but it was hard to define exactly what I was dissatisfied with, and I wanted to show it, but I didn’t want to lose my dignity.

This is what happened when I just said something.

-Princess. This is Beryl.

In the end, when no solution could be found, Beryl knocked on Yuna’s door.

Should I just pretend to sleep? I could have covered up this situation by saying I had fallen asleep.

No, I didn’t like that either. He had come this far, and somehow I felt that I didn’t want to send him away and remain in this lonely room.

“K-huh. Please come in.”

In the end, Yuna cleared her throat and called him over.

The door opened carefully and Beryl came in.

He was dressed in comfortable clothes, different from his usual uniform.

His muscular body was revealed under the thin fabric of his top.

Even when I wore my uniform, I thought I had a thick body, but it became even more so when I wore my everyday clothes.

“Excuse me.”

“Well, it’s late. “Are you crazy?”

“… ? As you said, I was on time.”

“Everyone, shut up. “Who gave you permission to talk back?”

“… sorry.”

Even from Yuna’s own perspective, it was a strange conversation.

Yuna left Beryl, who was looking at her in confusion, and sat down on the bed.

“How long are you going to stand there?”

“S-sorry.”

With those words, Beryl sat down at the table near Yuna’s bed.

For a moment, he thought he meant to sit next to the bed, but that didn’t seem to be the case, so he did the next best thing and sat on the nearest chair.

“… … ”

“… … ”

The room was filled with silence.

Since he just sat there and didn’t do anything, there was nothing to complain about.

Yuna was still sitting on the bed, just wiggling her toes.

“… “Princess.”

“… “What is it?”

“Can I ask you one thing?”

Beryl, who had been leisurely enjoying the silence for a while, spoke first.

Is it because I know Yuna a little bit now? Or was it because the Yuna of the past still remained?

He was able to figure out that Yuna didn’t call him because she truly wanted to punish him.

I don’t know exactly how I felt, but I knew that it wasn’t as if I was truly angry at myself.

So instead, I opened my mouth first to break the awkwardness.

Because there was something I wanted to ask. If Yuna had something she wanted to say, she would naturally bring it up during the conversation.

“Magic is… “May I ask when you were able to use it?”

“Magic… well. It must have been about 8 or 9 years ago. “Then Eric came to see me.”

“If it’s Eric, you mean his assistant. Likewise, you are a wizard.”

“that’s right. “He felt my mana and came to the royal castle.”

Beryl had many questions about her magic.

Yuna’s magic teacher and helper named Eric exchanged greetings briefly, but he did not know exactly what happened in the past.

This was a question I brought up because I thought it would help me find out how Yuna has been doing over the past 10 years.

“I think I released my mana inadvertently. Eric said it was such a powerful magical power that he couldn’t pass it up. The first day he came to see me… … .”

Yuna began to rummage through her memories and bring up events from the past.

Everything from meeting Eric and learning magic to deciding to accept Eric’s offer and become king.

I thought the memories were nothing special, but when I actually brought them up, they turned out to be a long story.

Beryl listened to Yuna’s long story until the end, staring at her face.

“… So I kept the magic secret until the end as much as possible. But now was the time when I could no longer hide it, and there was a good opportunity. “Now that we have the power of Duke Ceramide on our back, we will have to step out into the sun from now on.”

“… “I see.”

Of course, Yuna didn’t talk about Ben.

In a way, Ben was the motivation for all of her actions, but it wasn’t something she felt she needed to tell others about.

“… “May I ask why you decided to become king?”

But Beryl asked her without missing the space.

It seemed like he had absolutely no interest in the throne, and in fact, the line of succession was quite far away, so it was a question he asked because he couldn’t understand why she would do this.

“The reason I decided to become king… ”

Yuna mulled over Beryl’s question and snuggled into the blanket.

I wasn’t falling asleep, but after sitting for a long time, I felt like lying down, so I naturally did that.

“plural… shall.”

“… “Who is your revenge against?”

“… I don’t know that.”

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Yuna answered while looking at the ceiling.

plural. Is this revenge on Helia who destroyed him and Ben? Or is it revenge on Ceramide and the other nobles who betrayed Legius in a good way?

Or is it revenge for Syria, which laughed abominably in front of Ben even though it knew of its betrayal? Or is it revenge against one’s pathetic past?

I didn’t even know anything myself.

However, it seemed like Yuuna would break down if that meaning disappeared.

“… Is that so?”

I look at Beryl, who nods with a strange expression.

Until now, I had lived with only that one vague goal in mind, but now the fact that he was by my side was different.

For some reason, I felt like life itself became more meaningful if I was with him.

Unlike in the past, it felt like the surroundings were filled with color.

“… Beryl.”

“yes. “Princess.”

“Come closer and sit down. “Because I can’t hear my voice very well.”

At Yuna’s command, Beryl brought a chair and sat down next to her bed.

It smells like his body and soap. It was a scent I didn’t hate.

“Why do you serve me?”

Am I a little intoxicated with the atmosphere of the night?

Even though I didn’t drink like usual today, Yuna brought out the question that was inside me without realizing it.

“No one is trying to protect me… ”

Yuna herself knew what she had done.

I also knew how many people I had killed and how many people I had resented.

I didn’t feel guilty about it. To be precise, it would be correct to say that it has become dull.

However, because he was aware of his mistakes, he knew that people around him were reluctant to see him.

He also expected that the escort knights would not protect him in a truly emergency situation.

But Beryl was different.

He really risked his life to protect himself. Without hesitation, I threw myself into a situation where I could really die.

Yuna still didn’t understand him like that.

There was only one person in the world who would be happy if he died. No one will regret it.

That fact made me feel lonely in the past, but now I have no regrets or regrets.

Because I just continued to live like this, I was now used to being hated, and I couldn’t change.

However, his actions were gradually loosening Yuuna’s hardened heart.

It makes him hesitate to kill people and makes him sad that everyone hates him.

He makes you feel lonely and careful what you say. It brought back the lost feelings little by little.

“That’s not true, princess.”

“… yes?”

“No one will try to protect the princess. Even if it’s not me, there must be someone who values the princess.”

“… “There is no one like that.”

“no. there is.”

What does he know so confidently?

Yuna wanted to tell him not to talk nonsense, but when she met his eyes, she couldn’t get the words out.

His eyes were so straight. It seemed as if he sincerely thought so.

“Well, even if that’s the case. “I asked why you did that.”

Feeling embarrassed for some reason, Yuna looked away from his gaze and spoke in a slightly raised voice.

“That’s because I am the princess’s knight. In fact, long before I became your knight, I swore to protect you.”

“I hope you don’t just say things out loud.”

“I’m serious.”

“joy… ”

I knew it was a lie, but I didn’t feel bad.

I liked the fact that his voice was directed towards that.

“… That necklace. “Are you doing this even when you sleep?”

Beryl changed the subject and asked about Yuna’s necklace.

It was the necklace that Beryl had given as a gift in the past in the empire.

“Ta, it doesn’t really have any meaning. “I just do it because something can happen even while I’m sleeping.”

“okay. “I also wear it all the time.”

It was a necklace that now felt awkward without it.

For some reason, Yuna felt ashamed that this fact had been discovered, but she still did not take off the necklace.

I really felt like nightmares would come again if I didn’t wear the necklace.

“Are you sleeping well now?”

“yes. What are you doing these days? ”

There were still days when I drank because I remembered Ben from time to time, but the days when I had nightmares were rare anymore.

I didn’t want to admit it, but it was thanks to Beryl’s presence. When I realized that fact, my ears felt hot for some reason.

“Then the princess… … ”

After that, Beryl continued to ask Yuna boring questions.

Yuna was dissatisfied with why she was answering the questions about the escort driver so diligently, but she did not ignore them and answered them all.

It was meaningless, just really trivial topics such as what they liked, what they enjoyed, how they spent their past lives, etc., but strangely enough, Yuna found the conversation enjoyable.

She didn’t notice that she herself was smiling while talking to Beryl.

“… Now go to sleep. “Your eyes are closed.”

“Yes… you… ”

As the conversation continued until late at night, Yuna’s eyes were slowly closing while she was answering.

Beryl, who saw her like that and let out a laugh, turned off the light.

Only the soft light coming in illuminated the room.

“Then I’ll just…” ”

Percussion-

“… “Princess?”

Yuna grabbed Beryl’s arm as she tried to leave Yuna’s room.

It was something I did in my sleep. Even Yuna herself couldn’t realize it.

She had already fallen asleep after holding his arm.

“… “I will take you there.”

Beryl laughed again and sat down again. And I looked closely at her sleeping face.

“Yuyuna… ”

A lot of emotions crossed my mind.

Yuuna, whom he loved in the past. And the current Yuna whom I came to hate.

Now, it seemed as if it reminded Yuna of the past. Of course, I knew that her nature would not change.

However, I couldn’t stop the past memories that came to mind while talking to her from disturbing my mind.

For the first time in a long time, Ben found himself reflecting on memories of the past.

It was of no use now, and Yuna was no longer the fiancée I knew in the past.

Nevertheless, right now I wanted to feel this feeling.

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