That Man’s 101st Bad Ending

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I don’t know what made me cry so much, but Adrian, who sobbed for a long time in my arms, fell asleep.

I look at the woman collapsed in my arms for a moment, then let out a small sigh.

She wouldn’t have had anything to apologize for. Why do you feel guilty and apologize so much?

In all his many lives, he had never been directly involved with Adrian.

Besides, while we were together today, there was nothing to apologize for,

About today’s work… I guess I’ll have to ask later.

As a saint, I wonder if I saw something special.

“…If you sleep here like this, I’ll get in trouble.”

Since he fell asleep in his arms, it was difficult to wake Adrian right away.

In the meantime, I fell into a deep sleep, and carefully lifted Adrian’s body, who had collapsed while holding me in his arms.

I think if Berod sees it, it will explode for one reason or another, but

It was impossible to send Adrian back to the room in this state.

Did you sleep well today? As I lay down on the bed and covered myself with the blanket, the arms that were holding me relaxed.

Seeing her soon falling asleep, she slowly brushed the hair that had fallen on her forehead.

why did you cry so much No matter how much I thought about it, I couldn’t think of a reason.

Apologizing for feeling sorry for me, and hugging me for being suddenly cold.

Then, suddenly, the wound on Adrian’s hand caught my eye.

It looked quite painful to be covered with splinters of wood, but did he come all this way with these scars?

It was probably a rosary stuck in it.

The thing hanging from her throat was gone, and blood flowed as she carefully pulled out the splinter.

…I think it must have been very painful.

Even so, if you came to me, it must be that there is an important reason to come this far.

I didn’t know what it was. However, it was true that I felt a faint sense of gratitude.

How long has it been since you were held in someone’s arms? Even when he and Mirajen were lovers, it was now decades ago.

It’s been a long time since I felt the warmth of a person so close. I was able to forget this winter for a while.

Even while disinfecting and bandaging the wound, Adrian still did not wake up.

I think I will probably stay in this bed all night.

If you lay in the same bed, there would be misunderstandings, and it wasn’t that difficult to stay overnight.

He carefully covers Adrian, who is still asleep, with a blanket.

I extinguished the one remaining candle and read Arwen’s letter slowly, relying on the remaining moonlight.

It was always dawn when I was alone, but today there are two of us.

It had to be a pretty strange feeling.

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I was able to read all of Arwen’s correspondence with the sky gradually brightening.

To be precise, it took some time to analyze the code written in it.

Sentences written with magic, maybe only Arwen or I can recombine and interpret them.

It was written in this way to rule out any possible danger.

If someone else sees it, it’s just to ask each other’s regards, but if you interpret the contents.

Wasn’t it about the relationship between the crown prince and the dragon?

There wasn’t much in the letter.

It was probably all of the things I researched during my stay in the North, but most of them were already known.

[There aren’t that many connections between the dragon and the crown prince yet. Unless you go to the south and come into contact with the artifacts, it will be difficult to figure out what the thoughts are.]

I also affirmed this statement.

Wouldn’t it be better if he brought the artifacts that existed in the south directly to the crown prince? Because it was still unknown about the two of them.

It wasn’t that I didn’t assume it, but this episode was the first time the story came out so directly.

It was probably because the prince approached from the perspective of ‘how’ he killed me rather than ‘why’ he killed me.

Strange variables would appear in every episode.

There were some that were created in the name of the crown prince, but didn’t most of them appear in unexpected places?

If even those things were related to the crown prince.

Perhaps this problem could have ceased to be simply my personal problem.

Four Dragons, what would happen if I had to fight against the Four Dragons?

I saw the end of the sword, but now I was at the stage of doubting whether it was really the end.

Doubting enlightenment, wouldn’t it be correct to say that he is touching the next wall?

However, the problem was that physical growth was still necessary.

If the all-out war with the crown prince were to take place with a little over a year left, the level of progress this body would take would determine success or failure.

rustle-

As I was reading Arwen’s letter for a while, I turned my head to the sound I heard from behind.

I couldn’t hear the breath that I had been sleeping quietly. Maybe he’s about to wake up soon.

Now that the sun was fully up, it would be all right to send her back upstairs.

Now is the right time to avoid getting caught by Berod.

While thinking about what tea was good for relieving fatigue, rosemary suddenly came to mind.

It was probably among the tea leaves I had.

After boiling water and floating tea leaves, the fragrant aroma of tea began to fill the space.

Winter mornings are not so cold. As the sun that has just risen is the most brilliant,

The warm light shining on the pure white snow was perfect for waking up.

The scent of tea spread, and as I took out the cookies I had bought earlier and placed them on a plate, I heard a rustling sound from the bed.

“Are you awake?”

He approaches the bed and hands her a teacup. Adrian, who was rubbing his messy eyes, stretched himself and trembled.

Perhaps he wasn’t awake yet, he just nodded cautiously while holding the teacup I handed him.

After blankly drinking the tea, Adrian’s eyes turned to me with a small lick of his lips.

The eyes, which had always been closed, were squinting.

Transparent eyes turned to me, and then the hand holding the teacup trembled.

Little by little, a small voice came from the gaping lips.

“…Robert?”

“Looks like you’re a little awake now.”

“Uh, when did you come to my room? Where is Emily-”

“Of course it will be on the top floor of the wall tower. I returned the one that came at dawn.”

The expression of the servant who came to me while I was reading the letter seemed to be looking at Adrian sleeping in my bed in a curious way.

Did you say that you couldn’t fall asleep easily unless it was the place you always slept?

However, I think it is possible because circumstances are different. Didn’t you fall asleep from crying?

-You’re sleeping too deeply to wake me up like this, so I’ll go up with you in the morning.

-That’s fortunate. I thought you were gone and tried to wake up the Paladins. Still… it’s not that I don’t believe it, but please take good care of me.

– I have no intention of doing anything rude. Even more so, isn’t this the Wall Tower?

I knew what they were worried about, but I had no intention of laying my hands on Adrian’s body.

There was a virtue in coming here and showing only good things to others.

At least you know for sure that I’m not the kind of person who would do anything weird, having entrusted Adrian to me.

When I said that I had sent the attendant back, Adrian blushed and brushed his cheek.

It took a long time for the red color to disappear, and soon the tips of her ears turned red as if they were burning again, probably because she recalled the memory of dawn.

“Ah…”

“There was nothing to be ashamed of. Well, I’m a little curious about the reason for crying yesterday.”

“Hey, don’t say things like that. Because I know…”

Laughing at the crawling voice, Adrian knocked the bed with his foot.

Now that I think about it, it was a pretty embarrassing memory.

Because he came to me right away and hugged me, apologized for a long time and cried and fell asleep.

Even when I think about it, my cheeks get hot, but the feelings I feel add to it.

Adrian, who hugged his knees and kept his mouth shut for a long time, then slowly turned his head toward me.

Her cheeks, which had been completely red, had regained their color, albeit slightly.

Perhaps he was ready to explain yesterday’s events, but his gaze toward me did not fall for a long time.

“Are you still here?”

“Of course. Where would I like to go?”

“…Can you hold my hand? A little bit anxious.”

Looking at the shaded expression, he smiled and nodded.

I don’t know why they say they get anxious every time they see me.

Adele and Adrian. Because I always said that I was worried that I would disappear.

As he pulled up the blanket and squeezed his hand lightly, Adrian grabbed his hand while his shoulders trembled.

My fingers intertwined between my fingers, and I stared at the hand that was completely gripped.

It seemed to me not to run away.

It was quite difficult to understand her attitude like this, as if I had foreseen the future where I would disappear.

However, he did not open his mouth.

They just held hands like that for a while, waiting for her to explain herself.

The name saintess seemed to shine for the first time at this moment.

Even though she had just woken up, her appearance was not disturbed in the slightest, and her pale skin and red lips stood out in particular.

Hesitating, his expression was full of words he wanted to tell me.

“I will wait for you to speak. So you can speak slowly. There is still plenty of time.”

“I don’t mean to waste too much time. So, I don’t know how to explain what I saw.”

I sat down next to Adrian and waited for a while.

Sometimes looking out the window, sometimes looking at Adrian’s face.

It was true that he was seized with a strange feeling just by being by his side, but he did not leave his seat.

Aren’t I her friend?

If she had something to say, she was willing to wait.

how much more time has passed

By the time the sun that had just risen rises upward again, and the birds that had fallen asleep were chirping.

A soft voice flowed into my ears.

“Are you surprised that he suddenly came to see you yesterday?”

“I was a little surprised. I didn’t think you would come.” “I’m sorry. I came because I had something I wanted to say. I couldn’t think of the time.”

“What did you see? If you were crying like that, you wouldn’t have apologized to me.”

At my words, Adrian laughed bitterly for a moment, then exhaled quietly and looked into the air.

It was like a process of refining yesterday’s memories.

Since you said you didn’t know what to explain to me, I wonder if you can hear it now.

“I had a dream.”

Turn your gaze to the story of a dream. Adrian’s expression was slightly contorted.

It was a face that looked like it was about to burst into tears at any moment, like the expression I had once made, as if blaming myself for something.

“…the dream that Robert died because of me.”

“Is it so?”

“I didn’t die once. many times. I’ve seen people take their own lives, and sometimes I’ve seen them die by a loved one. And even though I could have helped you, there have been times where I have stayed by your side.”

The words seemed to be talking about my past.

All of them are similar to my death, so maybe I really read the past. I thought so.

“So I wanted to apologize. For failing to help you, for just watching you die. By ignoring her, even though she was a saint, she acted uncharacteristically. That is why you are dead.”

“I see.”

However, my voice was still calm.

Even if that dream was reading my past, I never thought I died because of Adrian.

If I had a grudge, I held it to myself. They cursed at me for not being better and smarter.

“You don’t have to apologize to me.”

“…Can you say that even though you died because of me?”

“Yes, isn’t it a dream anyway? And even if it were real, I wouldn’t resent it. If I die, it will be my own fault.”

He died because he was weak. He died because he couldn’t look around.

Because she couldn’t protect the person she loved, she died in her own madness.

Who would you blame for these dozens of deaths?

Killing the crown prince was only to put an end to this regression, and besides, there was never a single enemy who resented Adrian.

There was a woman who looked at me curiously.

As if about to shed tears again, I slowly opened my mouth to the woman who was staring at me.

“It wasn’t your fault.”

Even if she saw my past, I thought so.

It was just my fault for coming too hastily.

If he had approached it a little more calmly, if he had risen from the bottom of the church, the result would have been different.

And if it’s a dream, it’s not even her fault. He rubbed Adrian’s cheek.

He reassured her like that while sweeping down her soft cheeks without the slightest stain.

The hand he was holding was still warm.

It was warm enough to forget the coolness flowing through the windows for a moment.

“I am still here.”

“…when you die, when my dreams become reality. I-“

“I will not die.”

He knew that the saintess’ dreams were special.

Whether it’s foreknowledge or reading the past. Because it was like seeing reality, not a dream.

That’s why it must be anxious. With a small smile at her kind heart, I opened my mouth like that.

“I will live forever and come back to the Wall Tower.”

To reassure Adrian, he quietly whispered a lie.