She Can Also Be Gentle

Chi Nuan went to Yuncheng No. 1 Middle School for an internship in the next semester of his senior year. The high school teacher qualification certificate has been successfully obtained. He Liwen, who was regretful at first, also joked and said that he and Chi Nuan would become official colleagues soon.

It was Chi Nuan's long-term plan to be admitted to Yuncheng No. 1 Middle School, if that didn't happen.

That day was an important day for Chi Nuan-graduation defense.

Before it was her turn, she was standing in the hallway outside the classroom drinking water. Thinking of Chi Qingchuan, she called him: "Brother, I will reply today."

Chi Qingchuan said: "Then you come on."

Chi Nuan heard the dense rain on the other end of the phone. She asked Chi Qingchuan, "Is it raining in Yuncheng?"

Chi Qingchuan: "Yes, it's quite big."

Chi Nuan: "Brother, take the little phoenix tree out to play this summer vacation, will you have a vacation?"

Chi Qingchuan: "Yes, you can decide the itinerary. Tell me in advance. I'll talk to Mr. Ji."

A classmate came to remind Chi Nuan to prepare for his defense. Chi Nuan responded and said to Chi Qingchuan, "Brother, I'm going to prepare for the defense. I won't go back this week. There is still something to do at school. You can help me tell Xiao Wutong."

"Okay, I'll give you some more oil for Little Wutong."

Chi Nuan hung up the phone. She didn't know that this was Chi Qingchuan's last call in the world.

At four or five o'clock in the afternoon, Chi Nuan packed up the reference books in the dormitory and received a call from the police asking her to claim her body.

It was raining heavily and Chi Qingchuan was rear-ended by a truck on the highway from Yuncheng to L City. The body was squeezed by the truck, and the person was gone on the spot.

He is going to L City to pick up the little phoenix tree. Yue Yun's boyfriend's business trip ended early, and it was inconvenient for Xiao Wutong to stay there anymore. Yue Yun repeatedly urged, he had to brave the heavy rain and set off.

Chi Nuan didn't know how she got to the funeral home. Throughout the summer of that year, she couldn't feel any color. Everything she saw was gray and foggy.

Fortunately, Mr. Ji has handled Chi Qingchuan's funeral in an orderly and proper manner.

During the farewell ceremony, the little phoenix tree stuck to the glass cover of the coffin, staring at Chi Qingchuan inside, and asked Chi Nuan, "Why didn't Dad get up?"

He still couldn't understand the meaning of "death" well. After the funeral, Chi Nuan cried for a few times, then turned around and asked, "Aunt, mom, dad? I haven't seen him for many days. He really won't come back. Do you miss him."

Chi Nuan just cried.

After Chi Qingchuan's accident, Yue Yun sent Xiao Wutong back, and two months later, she appeared again on Xiao Wutong's birthday.

Yue Yun and Chi Nuan talked over the phone in advance and said they were coming. Chi Nuan asked Mr. Ji to pick up the little Wutong for a long time.

Yue Yun entered the door somewhat restrainedly, and put the birthday gift she had brought to Xiao Wutong on the coffee table. Seeing that Chi Nuan had become so strong in a short period of time, she asked, "Isn't Xiao Wutong?"

"Yeah." Chi Nuan said.

"I know you hate me in your heart." The familiar furnishings and Chi Qingchuan's black and white photos made Yue Yun bow her head. She wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes with a tissue: "If you know something will happen, I won't let your brother come to pick up the little phoenix tree."

The two sat facing each other, Chi Nuan's eyes were hollow: "Yes, I hate you. So why are you here today? Do you want to take Xiao Wutong away?"

Yue Yun did not expect that she would be so direct, and she was embarrassed for a moment: "...I also want to bring the little phoenix tree with me. But I have a problem, I will get married soon...but don’t worry, I will pay the little phoenix tree regularly. This The aspect will never treat you badly."

Chi Nuan heard this, opened his swollen eyes, and said with a wry smile: "Little Wutong only went to kindergarten. Have you ever thought about my difficulties? How can I raise him by myself? You are his mother, you Saying this, don’t you think you’re too selfish? Pursue your own life blindly. In these years, how many days have you taken care of him? How much love did you give him?"

Yue Yun was blushed and white on her face, and she forced herself to defend herself: "I do not take back custody rights, it is for your consideration. Except for Xiao Wutong, you have no other relatives. If I take him away, too. Now, you are alone, and there is not even a speaker at home."

Chi Nuan hugged her knees and buried her face on her lap. She didn't want to look at Yue Yun's face again: "You go, I don't want to see you again."

Yue Yun knew that she would be boring if she stayed any longer, so she made this trip today and made it clear what she should say. When she left the house, she turned her head back: "You are right. I am indeed a selfish person. Not only did I fail to fulfill my duties as a mother, but I also killed your brother indirectly. You hate me and you should... But Chi Nuan, Your brother started taking care of you alone when he was 16 years old, and he has done all kinds of dirty work. If you really feel sorry for your brother, just treat the little phoenix tree."

Every word is like a knife in the heart.

After Yue Yun left, Chi Nuan maintained the posture of tucked knees. She hadn't been able to sleep for a long time, and her spirits were always in a trance. At this time, she closed her eyes, and she didn't know if she was asleep or not, and again consciously, Mr. Ji and Xiao Wutong came back.

With the cake in his hand, the little phoenix tree eagerly moved to Chi Nuan's side: "Aunty, let's make a wish. Uncle Ji said that birthday wishes will work."

Mr. Ji opened the cake box, and on his fifth birthday, he took out five candles and inserted them on the cake. Xiao Wutong broke his fingers and was suddenly happy: "Five! Can you make 5 wishes?"

Mr. Ji said: "Well, there are five little phoenix trees."

Xiao Wutong immediately looked at the candle bag: "Can't you use them all? So many wishes can be made... I'm afraid I made too few wishes, and Dad didn't hear them."

Mr. Ji couldn't help but shake the light, he took out all the candles: "Little Indus, can Uncle Ji borrow a candle from you to make a wish?"

"Yes." Xiao Wutong promised to be refreshed, watching all the candles one by one in the cake, he turned to Chi Nuan: "Aunty, Xiao Wutong will also lend you one."

Chi Nuan held his forehead and watched Mr. Ji light up the candle.

She also believed in making a wish before, whether it was facing the wishing card or the Kong Ming lantern, she was pious.

Now I know that it's all fake.

On the riverside that year, Gu Ningzi led her to light the Kongming Lantern, and she made two wishes in her heart.

She hopes that her brother can be healthy and live a long life; she hopes that every day in the future, she will be joyful and happy like the moment when the lantern is set off.

Things backfired.

Chi Nuan always thought that separating from Gu Ningzi was the cruelest thing she had ever experienced, but her destiny was obviously not satisfied with this, and she was still testing her bottom line. She couldn't accept that the brother who brought her up and was more dedicated than all his parents, just left her forever.

…

After eating some cakes, Chi Nuan cheered up and cooked dinner for the little Wutong. Mr. Ji should be leaving. He silently left a paper bag on the table.

Chi Nuan discovered it later, and when he opened it, there were two insurance policies inside.

The insurance time was four years ago, before and after Chi Qingchuan's divorce. The insured is Mr. Ji, and the names of Chi Nuan and Xiao Wutong are written in the positions of the beneficiaries.

Chi Nuan was taken aback by the amount of dividends, and immediately contacted Mr. Ji. Mr. Ji said, “During that time, Qingchuan was very confused. I know that he was under a lot of mental pressure. What I worry about most is you and Xiao Wutong. I am afraid that I will not take care of him. Good for you. I bought the insurance without telling him. He is no longer there. I will show it to you, so there is no need to worry that he will be unhappy."

"I may not be ready for everything, Nuannuan, you have difficulties, remember to speak to me."

"Cheer up, your brother certainly doesn't want you to be so depressed all the time."

Chi Nuan looked at Chi Qingchuan in the photo, Chi Qingchuan smiled slightly, his expression no longer soft.

Brother, for so many years, for me, for the little Wutong, you are also very tired, aren't you? How bitter you are, but you have never confided to me a little bit. You in front of me are always so positive and optimistic.

Chi Nuan supported the edge of the table without strength, and suddenly heard Xiao Wutong crying loudly in the room. She wiped away her tears immediately and walked to the room: "Little Indus, don't cry or cry, what's the matter?"

Little Sycamore sat cross-legged on the floor, all tears like beads smashed into the puzzle: "Aunty, I'm too stupid. Dad has taught many times, but I still can’t do it well... Oh... I miss Dad, it’s me today. On my birthday, my father didn't come back... Aunt, will my father never come back...? They said that father died, and if he died, he would never come back again."

Chi Nuan stood by the wall and stood for a while before he stepped forward and hugged the crying little phoenix tree. He trembled and said, "Your father is not dead, little phoenix tree, have you heard? He lives in our hearts, but there is no way to deal with him. Let's meet. Whenever one day, so people forget him, he will really die. Little Indus, you answer Aunt Mama, will you forget Dad?"

The little parasol shook his head desperately.

Chi Nuan: "Neither will I, so you see, your father will always be alive, in our hearts."

…

Because of Chi Qingchuan's death, Chi Nuan missed the recruitment exam for No. 1 Middle School. He Liwen, who knows the whole story, is more anxious than anyone else. Seeing that No. 1 Middle School is temporarily unable to enter, she advises Chi Nuan: "The private elementary school jointly run by No. 1 Middle School and the consortium is still recruiting teachers. Go there and try? In the future, I will be able to take the test, and teaching elementary school will also accumulate teaching experience.... The most important thing is that elementary school is easier than high school. You should spend more energy on the little Wutong in the past few years."

Chi Nuan's obsession is only one middle school. You can't go to one middle school. It doesn't make any difference where you go. It's not impossible to teach in elementary school for the time being. But the following year, No. 1 Middle School raised its recruitment requirements, and Chi Nuan was blocked by his undergraduate degree from the No. 1 Middle School.

The night after seeing the recruitment information, after Xiao Wutong fell asleep, Chi Nuan opened a bottle of wine to drink.

As soon as the wine entered the throat, the tears were hot.

What I missed is what I missed. First, Gu Ningzi...probably too.

Today, five years later, after suffering from the repeated teasing of fate, I am finally willing to believe that, what Secretary Su said back then, Gu Ningzi will not come back, and probably will not come back.

Tomorrow never comes. Every day she lives in reality is the moment of tribulation.

-But I still have to work hard and actively live every day as my brother has always conveyed to her.