After the wedding, Chaeyeon started receiving psychiatric counseling as promised with Sohee.

“I liked my classmate from the same university as Kim Si-hyun..”

Through the doctor’s guiding questions and empathy, she opened up her inner thoughts.

“But, like a bastard, don’t say a word that I love you. Take it!”

Chaeyeon, who was telling her story, soon began to cry so much that the doctor covered her ears.

As a result, he was prescribed antidepressant, anticonvulsant, and heart rate control medications.

“……..”

What I felt after taking this drug was that I thought a lot less than usual.

The face of Si-hyeon that came to mind when eating, washing, or even breathing, came to mind less.

‘Is it effective for about 5 hours?’

Is it forced through the drug? When the effect was exhausted, there was a side effect in which all things appeared to be visions.

Doctor reading, exercising, playing games, etc. He told me to focus on one sport and increase the time I can hold on without drugs.

She and Sohee were on leave of absence from school, so there was plenty of time left to recover.

***

It was said that a healthy mind resides in a healthy body. In order to recover the mentality of not knowing when to die like a sunfish, I started jogging at dawn with Sohee.

“Chaeyeon-ah, let’s go together..!”

“There is still a long way to go, but what if I’m already tired?”

15 minutes after the effect of the drug has passed.

Exhausted Sohee began to look like Sihyeon. I quickly realized that it wasn’t, but I couldn’t ignore the presence of Si-hyeon, even if it was a hallucination.

“Ugh…”

Finally, after waiting for about 25 minutes, I took the medicine. The scenery that was filled with Sihyun’s smile returned to its original state, and the heart that was beating like crazy slowed down.

“It’s still a long way off.”

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My goal is to lead a daily life without drugs. Can you survive 25 minutes out of 24 hours? Severity There was no such severity.

I sighed and thought again.

‘Shhyeon is about to come back after going on a honeymoon..’

I wanted to check the news through SNS, but it was clear that my symptoms would worsen if I did.

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Besides, she left her cell phone with Sohee so that she couldn’t check SNS.. It was really frustrating.

“Ah.. I miss Sihyun..”

“Huh? What?”

“Nothing.”

After the morning jogging, the next game.

I don’t know why, but I had an innate talent for games.

‘When I went to the arcade with Shihyeon, I used to win easily..’

While immersed in pleasant reminiscences, he won 26 straight wins against opponents he met online.

This is thanks to the fact that the opponent’s unit looks slow and it is clear what kind of motion it will take.

‘Tekken was a pretty easy game.’

Of course, I lost without a click to the real person, but if I memorize combos and accumulate experience, I will be able to aim for a higher level.

‘If there is a chance, I want to go to the arcade with Si-hyun again.’

I dreamed of an impossible dream and pressed the quick match button.

***

Five years have passed since I had a regular life.

The only thing that has changed is that I graduated from college and that I was able to survive 9 hours without drugs.

It is funny that the result of investing 5 years is 9 hours, but it is the result of trying to die anyway.

Tiling!

《Jushota-sama sponsors 2000 moon balloons!》

[Jushota: Queen, please trample me..! I will make a tribute here..!]

And while I was in college. At Sohee’s recommendation, I became a streamer.

She mainly specializes in Tekken and horror games, but her recognition has increased over time, and she has even been nicknamed “Queen”.

“Thank you for your support.”

I often hear that the reaction is boring, but it doesn’t matter because it’s not a show to get money in the first place.

Rather, there are people who defend this reaction as being a queen.

[Nofia Hegao: I came here today to make a pilgrimage. I’m looking forward to the day when the Queen will do her cam..]

[Queen’s Marjopet: I’m the only one who can’t match the Queen! I also want to get hit with a dog like my opponent!]

There were viewers who said that they would support tens of millions of people if they did a female cam, and there were viewers who looked like perverts if I hit them indifferently, but I ignored them all.

The female cam is not good at communicating, so I passed. There was no way he would listen to the perverted request unless it was Sihyun.

“Thank you everyone for watching. See you tomorrow.”

He ignored the dissatisfaction of the viewers and immediately indulged in it. There must have been a lot of donations piled up, but there was something more important than checking it.

tock. Todok.

I hurriedly connected to the social media app.

[Han Yerin]

Searching for the name of Wensu who stole Shihyeon.

It’s a girl I don’t want to think of if it’s the original, but since about 4 years ago, every day, I’ve been looking for news from this woman.

The reason is that..

[Photo]

[Photo]

Today, our Xion wrote a letter saying that he loves his mother❤ Our son.. Who is it that he resembles that makes him so smart and cute? I guess he resembles his father hahahaha

It was because of Sion, the child born in Han Ye-rin’s womb. It’s true that he resembles Shihyeon, so every time I saw it, my heart raced as if I was looking at a baby puppy.

“If you bite your cheeks, there will be no wish.”

Thousands of photos uploaded by Han Yerin have already been saved. Unbeknownst to me, I had become a prisoner of this young idol.

Of course, the number one in my heart is always Shihyeon.

***

One day.

It was when I visited the market to buy side dishes. While I was walking down the street to go to the side dish shop I usually go to.

“…..?”

I found a child sucking his finger in front of a snack bar.

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Breasts that protrude plump. Lips bright red like a cherry even when nothing is applied. Plus, those cute hands.

As I welcomed Shion for the first time in my life, I felt a sense of suffocation.

‘The fact that Shion is here… is it possible?’

Is Shihyeon around too?

After hiding, I hurriedly looked around, but I couldn’t even see Han Ye-rin, let alone Shi-hyeon.

“what’s this..”

There’s no way I’d have left this little kid… Is it supposed to be a missing child? Falling into a crucible of shock, I hurriedly approached Shion.

“Shion, where is your mother? Why are you doing this here?”

Shion, who was sucking her finger, answered my question.

“Noona.. I want to eat that yakitori..”

“……..”

Whose son is he? He looked like his father, but his appetite resembled his mother.

‘What should I do.. I should get it quickly.’

Feeding her food is easy, but in the meantime, Han Ye-rin would have run all over the place looking for Shion.

While I was contemplating whether I should call or not, Shion pulled my jeans.

“Sister.. I’m hungry..”

These dazzling eyes. Was this exactly what Shihyeon looked like when she was young? It was so cute that I almost gave it to my wallet without realizing it.

‘No.. Let’s calm down.’

The long-awaited meeting with Sion. But the situation was getting worse. No matter how you treat Shion like this, how is that different from kidnapping?

[XX Come to the food court. Zion is over here.]

After all, after sending a message to Han Ye-rin after years. Shion bought a lot of food he wanted.

“Pretty noona, I’ll eat well!”

Did you learn homeschooling well? Even the lip service is perfect. If Shion grew up like this, wouldn’t it make many women cry?

While I was thinking about that, I heard Wensu’s voice that I had not heard in a long time.

“Zion!”

“Mom?”

“Why are you here.. Mom told me to hold your hand tightly..”

Han Ye-rin hugged Shion’s body tightly. Saying it was good, she put tears on the child’s clothes, then sniffled to see if it had calmed down and looked at me.

“Lim Chaeyeon, how are you…”

“I’ll tell you in advance, but I accidentally found Shion alone. I didn’t bring her here.”

Shion nodded as if he was right. As if realizing that what I was saying was true, Yerin Han said while bowing her head to me.

“Thank you. Thanks to you, I was able to find Shion.”

“It doesn’t look good, so don’t bow your head in front of the kid. And…”

I looked at Han Yerin’s whole body. From his bare elbows to his shins stained red. He seemed to know at once how desperately he had been looking for Shion.

“Let’s get some treatment.”

Since I handed Shion over properly, my role ends with this. I got up and calculated the price of yakitori.

Then he looked back and uttered his last words.

“From now on, take good care of your children. Don’t lose one eye for nothing.”

I grabbed my bag and opened the door of the snack bar. When I was about to go out in the cold wind.

“Wait a minute!”

Han Ye-rin’s urgent voice caught me.

“Would you like to go get some coffee at my house?”

“..I don’t think we’re meant to be.”

“That’s true, but I found Shion, but you can’t just let him go.”

“……..”

If it was Han Yerin’s request, she would have just ignored it…

Shion, who had teriyaki sauce on her lips, kept worrying about it. A boy looking at me with a look of anticipation somewhere.

After losing to those bright eyes, I finally decided to follow Han Ye-rin’s words.

***

The place where Sihyeon’s family lived was a rented apartment.

The floor is littered with toys, and the walls are framed with photos of weddings and family trips.

While I stared at Shihyeon’s picture, Han Yerin smiled bitterly and said:

“I’m sorry, isn’t the house very messy?”

“It’s okay. I’m taking care of my children, so it’s only natural.”

“Thanks for your understanding. Then would you like to stay with Shion for a while? I’ll get you some coffee soon.”

because I had a child. Or maybe it’s because he’s married to Si-hyeon.

It seems that Han Ye-rin’s personality has become quite docile. In the past, I would have refused to even contact Shion.

“Sister, let’s play with me.”

“okay.”

I played with Shion with a fire engine toy, and then secretly took antidepressant medication.

This is where Sihyun lives. For some reason, it seemed that the effect of the drug was quickly erased.

“Have you waited long? Here’s coffee.”

I was handed the coffee cup Han Yerin gave me. After taking a sip, he asked in a calm voice.

“How’s your married life?”

“I’m really happy. Sihyeon and I have been busy in many ways, but we are all doing well.”

“okay..”

Unfortunately, there seems to be no sign of discord. If there were even a slight crack, I wanted to try it, but she was still a woman with no gaps.

While drinking coffee with a small tongue, this time from Han Ye-rin’s side, she opened her mouth.

“By the way, you’re very famous on Mutube.

“.. were you watching?”

“It happened on the algorithm by accident. I thought they looked alike, but when I found out that it was you, I was surprised.”

Han Ye-rin looked at where Shion was. Then he looked back at me and said with a bright smile.

“..I’m really glad that you also found your own path.”

your own way?

I was just trying to forget Shihyeon. Did something like that ever happen?

If I had been married, this family would have been my path. Despite taking the medication, I was confused.

“..I’ll just go.”

“”already?””

The hats sang in pairs. As she stopped walking, Han Yerin asked in a low voice.

“Sihyun… Is it okay if I don’t see you?”

“I don’t want to light a candle in a harmonious family.”

I was actually afraid. Seeing Shi-hyeon, I fear that the love that I have barely suppressed will be resurrected. Because of that, I was so afraid that I would do something terrible again.

While I was shaking hands behind my back, Shion, who threw a toy at me, approached me.

“Are you going, sister? When are you coming back?”

“Well, I don’t think I’ll be able to come again.”

“Why? Why can’t you come?”

When Shion starts crying, her heart swells.

On the other hand, even this expression is cute, so I wanted to capture it in a photo. While stroking Shion’s soft cheeks as if regretfully, Han Yerin approached and said:

“I’ll call you whenever I go out. So, come see Zion.”

Shion nodded her head as if telling her to do the same.

In the end, I succumbed to the child’s insistence, and I agreed to Han Yerin’s request and left at the same time.

***

Chaeyeon left, and the hat left in the house had a conversation.

“Shion, do you like that older sister?”

“Yes. Kind and pretty.”

“What..?”

The girl who snorted while watching the girl group music video, said she was pretty?

Yerin, whose alarm bell rang in her head, asked again with an awkward smile.

“Are you prettier than your mother?”

“……..”

Shion frowned.

A boy who suffers even more than when he asked if his mother liked him or his father. After pondering for a long time, Sion offered the best answer.

“Two, both are similar.”

“Ugh! That’s when my mom says she’s prettier.”

“I don’t know that!”

Shion started running away from her mother who was about to embrace her. However, he was caught shortly thereafter, and he laughed softly as he was tickled.

Shion, who smiles until tears fall, continues to make fun of her mother.

“After all, that older sister is prettier!”

“Yo! Yo!”

At the sound of Shion’s playful laughter, Yerin was smiling at the same time.

***

After that, Chaeyeon, who was waiting for her to be called, ran out as Yerin called her.

Even during the broadcast, she was so indulgent when she received a call, some communities even said that she might have a boyfriend.

“sister!!”

Shion hugged Chaeyeon’s leg as soon as she arrived. Seeing that, Yerin snorts.

“Shion, are you going to marry your sister like this?”

“Can I?”

“No! Never allow it!”

Yerin reacted violently to Shion’s innocent question. Are you trying to marry a woman who is more than 20 years older than you?

It’s dirt on the snow. Yerin shuddered, saying that cement shouldn’t even come in.

Then he warned Chaeyeon.

“You shouldn’t have weird thoughts about Shi-on, too? No matter how much he resembles Shi-hyeon…”

Chaeyeon shook her head.

“Don’t worry. Until the day I die of old age, the only person I love is Shihyeon.”

“…that’s more difficult.”

While Yerin was sweating on the back of her back, Chaeyeon sat down next to her.

Yerin, who was watching Shion kicking a soccer ball with satisfaction, said while swiping her hair to her ear.

“Yeah. These days, Sion is always begging me to show you your show?”

“..really?”

Chaeyeon’s ears perked up.

Does our prince take an interest in his broadcast? Chaeyeon vowed to work harder in the future.

“It’s cool that he’s good at games. That’s why the kid who was always begging me to buy him something to eat, asked me to buy him a game for the first time.”

“If you buy something like that for a kid who is only five years old, it’s going to be a bad habit.”

“It’s okay because I’ll take good care of it.”

While Yerin smiled with a carefree expression on her face. Chaeyeon asked carefully.

“If it’s okay with you, can Xion appear on our show?”

“Huh? Why our Shion?”

“It’s good to make good memories for the kid.”

“Aren’t you trying to use our cute Sion as a mascot?”

“It’s not like that. I’ll give you all the profits from the video featuring Zion.”

Yerin waved her hand saying the money was okay. Then, the moment I was happy that it would be a good memory for Shion.

“When I see Shion and I broadcast together… Shihyeon will be happy too, right?”

Chaeyeon, who looked at Shion with a faint gaze, shed her true feelings without realizing it.

“Im Chaeyeon, you…”

Surprised, Chaeyeon covered her mouth. Then he let out a shrill laugh and said it as if to be relieved.

“Don’t worry. As long as you don’t get a divorce, I won’t be aiming for Sihyun.”

“Huh. I’ll let you live single for the rest of your life.”

Yerin snorted and folded her arms. Then, Chaeyeon sighed deeply, saying that she was still a person of interest.

At the same time, I looked to the side where Shion was, but I couldn’t see where the child went.

Yerin hurriedly got up from her seat and looked around, and as a result found Sion getting out of the park.

“Zion!”

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Maybe the ball I was kicking and playing went out? The two of them followed Zion as it protruded out of the park.

The ball placed on the steep road went down the slope, and Sion hurried to pick it up.

“Zion, stand there!”

The rolling ball landed on a flat ground and only stopped when it hit a power pole.

When Shion picked up the ball safely, the two showed a relieved expression.

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Boo-woong-

The engine sound is late. As Chaeyeon, who was slowly approaching her, turned her head to the side, she saw a white logistics truck approaching Shion.

“Aaa but it>shion!!”

Shion found the truck and dropped the ball he was holding. My body is stiff and I can’t move.

Yerin screamed and ran, but contrary to her desperate feelings, the pace was very slow.

“No no!!”

Around the time Yerin knew she was going to be late. Chaeyeon, who was the closest to Shion, started running through the motor nerves she had accumulated over the years.

‘Don’t be late like this…!’

Chaeyeon, who was making fun of her legs, unconsciously threw herself. After finding her like that, a horn and a brake sound are heard.

Chaeyeon rushed in and pushed Shion in front of her, and she was thrown away by the overwhelming weight.

“Cuckoo..!”

tuk. Tutuk. thump.

Chaeyeon stopped after rolling nine laps according to the recoil. The blue sky turned red, and the pain that was supposed to come came very slowly.

“Are you okay, lady!?”

The driver got off the truck.

“Im Chaeyeon! Calm down… Calm down!”

Yerin calls Chaeyeon while crying.

“Sister..!”

Fortunately, he was unharmed. Even the voice of Zion who is crying out loud.

Chaeyeon’s eyelids became heavy as her body felt cold. She was relieved to hear Zion’s voice.

‘The life I was about to throw away anyway. Maybe I was lucky to be used in a place like this.’

For the first time in my life, I thought it was good that I was still alive. Finally, the face of Shihyeon that passes through my head. Chaeyeon smiled brightly and thought back to herself.

“Sihyun-ah, I have to be happy even my share.”

I closed my eyes. The warmth of the blood that I had felt before is no longer felt. It just feels like floating in the air.

When I think that I’m really going to die now..

Sara-

A flashlight flashes through Chaeyeon’s mind. When his own death approached, it was an act of searching his head to find a way to save him.

It’s like rewinding the life you’ve been through. It flows like a panorama.

banquet hall.

Watching the two of them get married, he cried out madly.

In front of Shihyeon’s house.

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Belatedly, I found out that I was pregnant, and I lost the will to live.

University.

Group assignments, quarrels in class rooms, etc. I used to fight various nerves with Shihyeon.

‘I’ve lived a really pathetic life..’

It was a very miserable and unsightly life.

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But it’s not that I don’t like it. Because those days are proof that he loved Shihyeon that much.

Aside from synchronous MT places. When various places such as arcades come to mind.

‘After all.. Is this the last time?’

228 parks. He reached the place where he parted and the space that caused all the incidents.

Chaeyeon regretted this day forever.

For the rest of my life, I blamed myself for lying to Si-hyeon, speaking harsh words, and not seizing the last chance he gave me.

‘It would be great if I could go back to this time.’

I want to go back and fix everything.

I wanted to build up more memories that I couldn’t build with Si-hyeon, express affection that I couldn’t do, and establish an equal relationship with other lovers.

So he stretched out his hand.

Woong-

A scene that floats like a movie theater screen spreads like a background of reality. It’s as if you’re wearing a VR device, and it’s as vivid as if you could grab everything the moment you stretch out your hand.

“…..!!”

Hearing is restored. The bustling atmosphere of the city and the hip songs from the store ring in your ears.

tock. Todok.

The sense of touch is revived. The cool summer night breeze, and the fine water droplets of snorkeling hit her face.

And when all the five senses are revived. In front of her stood Shihyeon, who looked younger than she had seen in the photo.

College student. A vision of when I was in love with myself. He looked like he was about to cry.

As if afraid to say He only licked his lips for a while, and then asked Chaeyeon with a trembling voice.

“Chaeyeon, do you like me?”

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