My 26-year-old Female Tenant

I gave Mi Cai my blessing with a smile, but she didn’t respond to me with a smile. She just looked at the fountain behind me in silence, still so emotionless, so this emotionlessness gradually infected me, and it was just Looking at the maple tree behind her until a maple leaf fell on her shoulder...

  Ban Dae also came to the nursing home at some point, walking towards us with an insulated box and a few jars in his hand.

  I finally said to Mi Cai: "My dad is here, behind you."

   Mi Cai looked back, then stood up from the bench, until Ban Dae came in front of her, he showed a soothing smile and called, "Uncle."

  Ban Dae picked up the heat preservation box in his hand, and asked with a smile, "Haven't you had lunch yet?"

  Mi Cai nodded, Ban Dae smiled again and said, "Zhaoyang and I just rushed over from Xuzhou. We have a tight schedule at noon, and we didn't cook any good dishes. They're all pretty homely!"

   "Uncle, I really like your home cooking!"

  Ban Dae put the thermos box on the stone table under the maple tree, and asked Mi Cai with concern: "Xiaomi, how are you doing? Do you still feel dizzy?"

   "Uncle, don't worry, it's much better, maybe I'm a little tired recently!"

   "Then you must pay more attention to rest. In summer, people are prone to anxiety and fragile body functions. Coupled with tired work and high pressure, it is easy to get dizzy!"

  I interjected: "Ban Dae, she is a brilliant student after all, can she not understand this common sense of life? Just stop nagging her!"

  Mi Cai looked at me with a complex expression, and I said to my father who was a little surprised: "You leave these meals, and we can go out to eat, and it will be soon!"

Ban Dae finally noticed something was wrong with the atmosphere, and after a little silence, he said to Mi Cai: "Okay then, Zhao Yang and I will go out for dinner first, and the pot next to the thermos box contains herbal tea made with Prunella vulgaris and honeysuckle, which has a calming effect. , if you find it bitter, add some honey, the honey is in the smallest jar, you must remember to drink it after dinner later..."

  I interrupted Ban Dae again, and complained: "Dad, when did you nag like this?...I'm so hungry, let's go to eat quickly, okay?"

Mi Cai looked at the large and small pots on the stone table, with tears in her eyes, and my heart ached, I just wanted to get out of the wrong place quickly, so I went to the parked place before my father The car goes.

   In an instant, he drove the car to Ban Dae's side, urging him to get in the car...

Ban Dad opened the co-pilot door and got into the car. Before I started the car, I stared at Mi Cai again. She seemed to want to say something, but she bit her lip again. I finally said to her: "Your shoulder There is a maple leaf."

Mi Cai turned her head to look, and took the maple leaf off her shoulder. I didn't say anything, closed the car window, and drove out of the nursing home with my father. I didn't even think of saying goodbye until I got out of the gate. I never told her... But so what, some people are born lonely, such as me, such as Mi Cai, so there is no need to say goodbye between us, because saying goodbye can't relieve those loneliness, and this kind of sadness, Because we have never really relied on each other, whoever is lonely and whoever is in pain deserves it!

  ...

During the meal with Ban Dae, I didn't say anything, just told him: Mi Cai was ready to marry another man, and then he fell into silence completely, and didn't say anything again until he left Suzhou. He must have been disappointed in his heart when he said the last word to me, but he also knew that no matter how hard he tried, he could not redeem anything. The son retains some last dignity.

  I seem to be used to the pain, so this afternoon, I have been very calm, smoked a half pack of cigarettes peacefully, slept peacefully for a few hours, and then calmly called Jian Wei, intending to return the car to her.

In my memory, it seems that I haven't sung with my guitar for a long time, so I took my guitar to the moat this evening. I want to sing, because calmness doesn't mean no emotion. I need a kind of catharsis, which is related to the guitar, and Alcohol-independent catharsis.

  Thinking about it, I am indeed much calmer than before, so I didn't go to the bar, didn't drink, I just came to this moat, and I can return Jian Wei's car to her by the way, isn't that sensible enough?

I lit a cigarette and plucked the strings of the guitar, but my throat felt inexplicably dry, so I sang the song "Proverbs of Love" with a much hoarse voice than before, but the more I sang, the more I couldn't understand why So risking heartache, singing this song with so many memories?

  Maybe, I fantasize about having a dialogue with Mi Zhongxin, and I want to ask him: Do you recognize what his most beloved daughter is doing now, and do you recognize all the changes and efforts I have made for Mi Cai?

As I sang and sang, a warm feeling came from the corner of my eyes, and I couldn't sing any more. I just looked at the rippling river, slowly smoked out a cigarette in my hand, and then looked up at the sky , the setting sun has been covered by thick clouds.

  ...

  Jian Wei finally came to my side. After she sat down, she asked, "Didn't you just come back the next day? Why is it earlier?"

  I threw the car keys to her, imitating Mi Cai's emotionless appearance, and replied, "I have something to do at the moment."

  Jian Wei nodded, didn't say much, as usual, took out a stack of documents from her handbag, as if she was about to enter the working state.

  I looked at her, and she turned her head to look back at me and asked, "Why are you looking at me like that?"

   "When do you plan to marry Xiang Chen?"

  Jian Wei was a little surprised by my sudden question, and replied after a while: "Next year, didn't I tell you before?"

   "Hurry up and get married, you will be at ease when you get married..."

   "Who stimulated you to become this kind of virtue again?"

  I smiled, and replied with disdain: "I will be stimulated?...Tell you, I can live smoothly until now, and I am already invulnerable!"

   "If I was in charge of taxation, I would definitely include bragging in the scope of taxation. Let's see if you guys dare to brag like this unscrupulously!"

  I didn't respond, I lay straight on the lawn, stared at the dull sky for a long time, and finally asked Jian Wei: "What do you think we are related to now?"

   Jian Wei was taken aback for a moment, and then replied: "It can be called a cooperative relationship, even if it is a friend."

   "Actually, I've always wanted to ask, we always bump into each other so frequently, and now we have a business partnership, does Xiang Chen not care at all?"

Jian Wei shook her head and smiled, and said: "Zhaoyang, you and I are both good horses, who would care about the grass that you have to look back to eat? So Xiang Chen doesn't mind anything, and I always feel that He is a confident man, he understands what kind of mentality can keep his woman!"

After a long while, I finally laughed at myself. If Jian Wei's statement is true, compared with Xiang Chen, I'm really not a confident man. That's why Jian Wei and Mi Cai left me one after another. Go, and I have degenerated into a lone star among the crowd... I just feel that love and marriage are getting farther and farther away from me!

  So, a little disillusioned, I made up my mind to give up those unrealistic fantasies about love, find a woman as soon as possible, and get married! Then go all out to create that "literary road" and realize the value of life that you should realize most!

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