Love Delusion

Lin Anran didn't go to see Teacher Zhou after an interval. Counting the days, tomorrow is the day he should go to the counseling center again.

During this period, Lin Anran's life had undergone tremendous changes, and everything was different from before. However, that night, he was still like a primary school student who had been on vacation for too long and was about to start school, unable to calm down.

When Lin Anran entered the room, Shang Hao was sitting by the bed waiting for him.

Yes, do nothing, just sit there calmly and wait for him to come.

With Lin Anran's keen intuition as a small animal, his footsteps suddenly stopped at the door and did not step forward.

Shang Hao was looking at him, and at this moment he said, "Of course, come here."

Lin Anran's premonition is even more serious. This is like the teacher or superior suddenly called you into the office, the first sentence is to say to you: "Come, you sit down."

This not only does not make people have the desire to think about the past, but makes people even want to turn around and run away.

Lin Anran bit his scalp, walked in under his gaze, and carefully sat beside him.

"I won't go to work tomorrow." Shang Hao has always spoken like a notice rather than a discussion, announcing that this is the case: "Tomorrow I will accompany you to the doctor."

Shang Hao has been thinking about it.

It was not that this matter had not been mentioned before, but it caused a strong reaction at the time. Lin Anran was so frightened that she shrank herself tighter in her shell and refused to come out again for a long time.

He thought he was radical for a while, and then he didn't mention it again.

He didn't want to force Lin Anran to say something he didn't want to say. If, of course, he couldn't tell the matter, then Shang Hao would wait for him slowly.

Lin Anran, a young hole-driller who lives underground, feels that only hiding is the safest and most reliable method. He has worked hard to hide deeper and more concealed.

After Lin Anran's aunt came, Shang Hao wanted to try again.

He first said "I won't go to work tomorrow", obviously he has already decided. At that moment, it was as if a wall was about to be pressed down in front of him, and he avoided Shang Hao's gaze as if he was running away, and reacted quickly to refuse: "No."

He has always been resigned and obedient, and refuses altogether when he is avoiding danger.

He had nothing to say and could not find a reason to stop Shang Hao, so he could only panic and said no.

Yes, he wanted to introduce the abducted Shang Hao to everyone in the world, except for Teacher Zhou. It's not Teacher Zhou's fault, but his own bad intentions of not being able to see people.

"Look at me, of course."

Lin Anran didn't want to see Shang Hao. He didn't want to discuss this matter anymore, didn't want to stay here, he would rather he didn't come in just now, Shang Hao didn't ask this question.

It would be great if time goes back. Or, he knocks Shang Hao out now, and then helps him sleep with a quilt. He went to turn off the light, and then got into Shang Hao's arms by himself, and let the unconscious Shang Hao hug him.

He really didn't want to talk about it anymore.

Lin Anran thought nonsense. Attempt to escape.

"Of course, look at me." He said again. Lin Anran closed his eyes. Try to shield the sense of hearing by shielding vision.

Can't hear, can't hear. An illusion is an illusion.

His ability to communicate with others is almost zero. He couldn't say one, two or three, and dealt with, prevented or postponed Shang Hao's purpose of seeing a doctor, and was forced to the end, so he had to escape awkwardly.

His social trick is to hope that the other party will find it conscientiously, don't talk about it.

Shang Hao pulled his hand over, and put Lin Anran's hand in the palm of his hand with both hands. His hand is larger than Lin Anran's, and the one that surrounds Lin Anran can continuously transmit heat.

Lin Anran twisted his head and turned to the other side that Shang Hao couldn't see.

"Lin Anran."

Mr. Shang called his full name.

Lin Anran couldn't see anything. In the darkness, she felt the hand that held him loosened, and Shang Hao's arm wrapped around him, turning him around with a little force.

what.

Lin Anran let out a cry in her heart that no one could hear.

Shang Hao didn't know. His perspective on the relationship between the two is different from that of Lin Anran. Lin Anran was a psychiatrist. He looked up at the relationship between the two from a more humble angle.

See, it turns out that he can get along with, talk, and maintain a normal relationship just like normal people. He even laughed about it.

He knew he was abnormal. Shang Hao also knew he was abnormal. But Lin Anran thought that they were...well, normal. What he meant was that, like all other normal people, Shang Hao and him, no one would mention that he was actually a mental patient. Thing.

If this issue is never brought up, everything will go on like this tacitly. Just don't mention it all the time.

Lin Anran pretended that he was not different from others.

He thought sadly, Shang Hao didn't know. What he had seen for so long was not Lin Anran, nor did he like Lin Anran, but the normal self he pretended to be.

He only knew that he was more introverted than the average person, but he didn't know what illness he had.

The word "normal" is like a curse, or it has become a shackle on him, the sharp glass stuck in the sole of his feet. Because Lin Anran is different from normal people, he has a lingering obsession with that "normal" self.

Inferiority is the tarsus of his life.

He himself didn't like the self who was hiding in the dark and couldn't bear to gamble, so how could he make Shang Hao like it.

Why must he confess? For him, it was like asking a lame man to show his useless lameness, and asking a blind person to introduce his blind eyes.

I do have a mental illness.

So Shang Hao also thinks I am abnormal, right?

"Lin Anran." Shang Hao called him a second time: "Are you hiding from me?"

Lin Anran refused to look up at him anymore, and Shang Hao knew that the old problem he had escaped had committed again. It seems that as long as he can't see, what just happened can be treated as if nothing happened.

Lin Anran refused to look at him. Shang Hao had to change his method. He approached Lin Anran, kissed his eyelids and lips, and kept rubbing Lin Anran's palm in his palm, trying to make people react. .

"Don't be afraid." Shang Hao said: "Of course, you know, I love you very much."

"I have been looking for you for seven years, so don't hide from me anymore, of course."

Lin Anran didn't know what to do.

He still feels insecure about many things, including all unknown things, including tomorrow's psychological consultation, including Shang Hao's promise to him.

He is cowardly, selfish, and has no sense of responsibility, and will only bury his head in trouble. However, despite this, even though he was insecure about Shang Hao's words, he looked into Shang Hao's eyes that night and finally nodded pessimistically at him.

He is like a dirty, sloppy stray dog ​​in the rain, willing to expose Shang Hao’s most disgusting rancid wound, and secretly hope that he will not dislike the flies lingering above him in the future. And bed bugs.

"I'm bad." He whispered sadly to Shang Hao.

The general manager of Shang was very nice, so he hugged him comfortingly at this time. And Lin Anran could already think of the scene of meeting tomorrow.

He closed his eyes.

...

the next day. Doctor Zhou sat in the office in advance and waited for Lin Anran's arrival.

She is looking through the previously recorded information of Lin Anran. Before, she was a little worried about letting Lin Anran stay alone these days, but with his current situation, temporarily suspending the consultation, maybe it will get better. He lives alone, oh no, he has a "friend".

Doctor Zhou thought about it. She put down the information in her hand and opened the "Shang Hao" character information interface again, wanting to see if there were any clues in it.

A young talent with a very outstanding resume, it should be said that the proud son of heaven is the kind of person who can only be seen on TV.

How could he think of He Shanghao...

Doctor Zhou heard a knock on the door from outside, she probed from behind the monitor and said, "Please come in."

Quiet for a second, the door was opened from the outside. Lin Anran's people appeared behind the door, and he had no confidence in calling people: "Ms. Zhou."

"An Ran, here it is." Doctor Zhou stood up and walked out from behind the table. As soon as she looked up, Lin Anran was still standing at the door, and she greeted him somewhat puzzledly: "Come in, Xiaoran."

"... Teacher Zhou." Lin Anran still didn't move, and called her again.

"Well, what's the matter?"

"Ms. Zhou, I brought someone here today." His voice lowered and lowered his head.

Doctor Zhou froze for a moment, and said, "It's okay, Xiao Ran, let's talk first with the friends you brought."

After listening to her, Lin Anran's people stopped for a while before they walked out from behind the door.

"Um, Teacher Zhou..." Lin Anran spoke slowly, and Doctor Zhou saw another tall figure, a suit, leather shoes, and-just seen in the character introduction interface that appeared behind the door. , Shang Hao's face.

Lin Anran felt like death and said, "This is the friend I was talking about."

His real person is standing in the office. Doctor Zhou missed a beat in his heartbeat, and now she couldn't react to it. Is this a dream or reality?

She looked at Lin Anran and then at Shang Hao next to him.

... Is it really that Shang Hao? !

Shang Hao looked around this office.

"Hello," he said.

"Hello." Doctor Zhou recovered and greeted him in time.

...

Lin Anran finished today's consultation. He sat alone on the chair outside. Shang Hao had waited for him outside for an hour and a half earlier, and now he went in and talked with Teacher Zhou.

Lin Anran slowly sighed against her knees.

It's done. It's no use regretting at this time.

After a while, Shang Hao came out from inside, and Doctor Zhou escorted him from behind. Lin Anran stood up reflexively and stared closely at Shang Hao's expression.

"Go home?" Shang Hao walked to him and asked him, taking Lin Anran's hand by the side.

After reading Doctor Zhou, Lin Anran looked at Shang Hao again, trying to find a little bit of evidence that he was disappointed in General Shang's expression.

I didn't see anything. He wanted to bit his lip anxiously again.

When they came, they took Shanghao's car, and so did they go back. For the first time in his life, Lin Anran was in such a dream car of many people, but he really couldn't have the mood to enjoy it.

When he came, he was very nervous, and he felt more senseless on the way back. The good news is that Shang Hao didn't say anything to him, such as "I don't think our personalities are inappropriate" or "We should be separated from each other for a while."

Shang Hao saw his anxiety. But his comfort did not help Lin Anran.

Pessimistically, it seemed that when they came back from the counseling center, they unilaterally believed that they were about to break up. This matter does not need to be approved by Shang Hao, he has already decided on it himself. It is simply an overlord contract.

Shang Hao: ...I don't agree.

And Lin Anran seemed to have more misunderstandings about herself than this.

In the evening, Shang Hao returned to the room and saw Lin Anran wearing a unique furry pajamas on the bed. He knew that Lin Anran seemed to have a wrong idea about his own interests.

Lin Anran would only take the initiative to put on those pajamas that were tempting to Shang Hao (Shang Hao:?) only when it was specially necessary, in order to seduce him.

Obviously, Shang Hao himself wanted to know where Lin Anran came to this conclusion. Is there any real man who likes one-piece pajamas?

Shang Hao walked over, sat on the side of the bed, and asked him, "What is this set today?" It seemed that Lin Anran had lost his blood. It turned out to be a nightgown under the pressure box he had never seen before. By the way, what animal has such a dazzling fluorescent orange?

Lin Anran: "I am a carrot."

Shang Hao:...

I have also made a joint name with the vegetable industry. Good guys.

Shang Hao: "I can see it. Of course it looks really good."

Lin Anran held the emerald green and tall radish on his head, leaned close to him, and stared at him with those silent and clear black eyes. Obviously he didn't speak, but he seemed to be waiting and urging him to do something.

——Quietly asked the holy monk, is the radish beautiful?

Saint Monk Merchant:...

Shang Hao kissed him: "Beautiful."

Lin Anran looked at his fascinated (?) reaction, and felt as if he could put aside a moment.

Mr. Shang, he really likes one-piece pajamas.

Lin Anran: Does the victim have anything else to say?

Shang Hao: ...I don't agree with this judgment.

Lin Anran: OK (beat the hammer), we will break up tomorrow.