Kidnapping the Hero Party

18. The third companion. As always, the moment of choice comes (5)

18. Third mate. As always, the moment of choice comes (5)

“… Saten, okay. Can I send the letter to the Sicilian family?”

“Yes, please do not let me know that I am here.”

nod.

A letter threatening his father, Sicilian Lennon.

After answering Saten’s words that I understand, I sent her back to the room.

And then, putting the letter in my bosom, I got ready to go out immediately and ran out the front door.

tadadak-

‘Saten, what is your true identity…?’

Human, but without emotions.

It looks like the soul is alive, but in reality it is empty inside.

Even, the common sense she has is not common sense.

It looked like all screws were missing somewhere.

“Minerva-!!”

“hoot-! hoot-!!”

Quaang-!

I slammed open the library door.

Minerva’s owl shouted in anger, but he ignored it lightly.

It wasn’t the owls who had business to look at.

“Coul… Hmmmm..”

“Minerva-!! wake up-!!”

“Ugh, uhhh…! fall… it’s not What is it, Junwoo.. From this early morning. Even goddesses have privacy.”

Minerva was sleeping while wearing a conical cap for sleeping.

Minerva rubbed her eyes and stretched.

And then, in a state of daze, he said.

“Junwoo..why are you harassing the goddess from the morning?”

“No, sorry about that. First of all, listen to me.”

“… I will listen and judge.”

I spoke openly about Saten’s information until now.

The magician of a strange Hero party somewhere.

Even though he succeeded in kidnapping, he couldn’t understand her at all.

“Um, that’s right… ”

Minerva thought for a moment, then replied, “Yes.”

“So, Junwoo! Are you saying you want to see the past of that child you’re buying right now?”

“Uh, I guess that’s the only way I can understand Saten.”

and.

This is the only way to save her from hanging herself.

It seemed that only if I fully understood her would I be able to decorate Saten’s story with happiness.

The end of the wizard who died alone was never to be seen again.

“If you want to live with that kidnapped child, I think you have to look at the past to understand.”

“ha… Jun-woo, are you a hogu? Why do you care so much about other people’s affairs? It’s the first time I met you anyway. There’s nothing good about looking at other people’s past. Just leave it alone.”

“… Still, it’s pitiful.”

“poor? Jun-woo, are you sympathizing now? Do you know how bad it is for the other person?”

“I know.”

Sympathy.

remorse.

That’s right, I sympathize with Saten.

Born to be destined to lose emotions and not be able to enjoy even small happiness.

she was pitiful

“Minerva, show me. Saten The child’s past.”

“… Okay, don’t regret it instead, Junwoo. It will be a little more painful this time.”

That much is promised.

The pain is familiar.

Minerva looked at me and sighed deeply.

Then, he brought a black book from far away.

It looked like a grimoire, but on the cover of the book was written ‘The Past of Sicilian Saten’.

“It is born and created, it is written while it lives, and it is recorded when it dies. You’re the only one who uses Minerva’s library, which has a great meaning, to look into someone else’s past, Jun-woo.”

In Minerva’s library, everyone’s ‘life’ is recorded.

Anecdotes that happen in life are written in the book.

In the case of heroes who set their minds on the world, the volume is so large that two bookshelves are used.

Completion of a book means death, and even deeper in this library, such a completed series is piled up in a mountain.

“Now, read it or not. Heh, I’ll sleep again. You know what to do!”

“… Thanks, Minerva.”

“Thank you! I hate it, stupid!”

Minerva nodded and went back to bed.

Even if you say that, you are worried about me.

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Just reading other people’s past has side effects.

He hated seeing me in pain.

“Well then, let’s read… ”

The past of Sicily Saten.

I stroked the cover with that written on it once, and with my heart fixed, I opened the book.

It was a world of endless darkness.

***

The genius wizard Sicilia Saten.

Most people’s lives start to get twisted up when they become adults.

It was from the time she was born that her life began to twist.

“The child’s magical powers are strange… !! Ah, all of the hostess’ magic power is directed towards the child… !!”

“what… ?”

Lennon, patriarch of the Sicilian family.

People said he had no feelings for him, but when he was with his wife, he was more emotional than ever.

He was happy living with his wife, and he did not want this happiness to be broken.

However, the happiness I hoped would not be so broken.

Saten was mercilessly torn as it was born.

“The child was born… but the hostess passed away. Head of household…”

“…”

The cries of a child coming out of his wife’s womb echoed, and Lennon took his dead wife in his arms.

Awkward-

Holding her cold in her arms, she stared at the child with hateful eyes.

that kid

That demonic child took my wife’s life.

The hatred of losing his wife and having nowhere to go naturally turned to Saten.

“noisy. I want to stick a sword in my mouth. Shut it up right now.”

“Go, my lord… The child’s name is… ”

“Do it with saten. And, never make this child visible to me.”

“Saten is Satan! Isn’t that similar to the Demon King’s name… !!”

“… To me, he is a human no different from the demon king. I was born with the devil’s fate. It is a fitting name.”

Satan.

and Saten.

Saten, who was born with a cursed name, was not treated well by the family.

For the first three years of her life at the family home, the sound of crying reached Lennon’s ears, and she was confined to a small cabin in the family forest.

No food was given, and Saten subsisted on the grass that grew naturally around him.

Happiness makes you dream, but pain makes you face reality.

A 7-year-old who lived a hellish life.

In a hopeless situation, Saten realized.

“… Why am I alive?”

The people in the book live with various meanings.

Some are adventurous.

Some love.

Some have knowledge.

However, Saten could not sympathize with those meanings.

Her world was utterly colorless, with no color at all.

From birth, suffering was her whole life.

‘But, like the people in the book, one day the light will come to me. Not black, but bright like light… ‘

Nevertheless, Saten lived with hope.

I was drenched in the rain falling through the hut and shivering in the cold.

He ate poisonous mushrooms and went to the threshold of death.

with the meaning of hope.

However, three years have passed.

The year I turned 10

Saten even gave up hope.

“just… I’ll let it all go… Wanna die… ”

The hope that kept him alive was actually torture.

The pain deepened, and there was not a single ray of hope in sight, and the surroundings were always dark.

Saten finally put a handful of poisonous mushrooms in his mouth, which he had experienced near death once.

well- well-

The poison turns inside out, and hallucinations dominate my eyes.

It is a wonderful experience.

The faces of my parents, whom I can’t even remember, float in the air.

“mother… father… ”

Saten stretched out her hand.

Her mother turned away from her, but her father tried to hold her hand.

“Your mother is ignoring even my death… ”

The poison spread all over his body, and Saten felt his body gradually becoming paralyzed.

Soon, the airway will be blocked and you will be unable to breathe.

However, the moment he was about to cross the threshold of death, the ‘Awakening of Mana’ suddenly started.

Originally, it was a process that took place at the age of 15.

Since Saten has had her mother’s magical powers since birth, her awakening started earlier than others.

Magical power pushed the poison away, and he began to detoxify Saten’s body.

“… uh, why I have to live… ?”

I wanted to die… ?

why… ?

However, Saten was unexpected.

That the awakening of mana would be more painful than poison.

After the magic finished the detoxification process, the magical energy that had been scattered throughout the body penetrated towards the heart.

“Ah, ah, ah..!! hurt… Lord, kill me… !”

If the amount of magic power is too much, it suffers from mental breakdown.

Therefore, it is normal for awakening to take place next to a teacher who is proficient in magic.

The master gently moves the magic and relieves the pain as much as possible.

However, since Saten was always alone, there was no teacher to do so, and she suffered the pain alone.

I had to endure it myself.

“Lord, kill me.. give me..”

so painful…

Better kill me…

All the nerves are focused on pain.

How can I get out of this pain?

Saten’s body, which could not stand it any longer, judged automatically.

Pain is caused by emotions.

Sad to feel the pain.

afraid to feel the pain.

I get angry because I feel the pain.

‘Emotions are the cause of all suffering.’

Saten’s body judged for itself, and turned off all her emotional switches.

to feel no more pain.

It was a self-defense mechanism.

Saten cut off all the pain and lost all of her emotions.

The whole world has turned black.

It was the best way to overcome the pain.

“… Was it you who were the true power of magic?”

“… ”

After that, Lennon, feeling the surge of magic, came to the villa and shouted at the servants.

“Take this child to the main building. And, call a teacher who will teach you magic. If you have talent, it will be ‘useful’.”

Eyes that look as if they are thoroughly ‘tools’.

Those eyes were never his father’s.

Since that day, Saten has digested a study load similar to that of abuse.

When he made a mistake, he slapped himself on the cheek, and always studied magic alone in a dark attic.

I tried to die, but I couldn’t.

So, the dark days continue…

***

It seemed as if the dark days were continuing.

Now I was looking at the ceiling of the library.

Above it, Minerva’s voice was heard.

“Junwoo!! Wake!!”

“… What is it, Minerva?”

Obviously, I was looking at Saten’s past… ?

When I opened my eyes again, I was lying on the floor.

A slight pain throbbed in his heart.

Then, above me, Minerva grabbed me by the collar and shook me.

It felt like something was about to vomit.

“Mi, stop Minerva… ”

“What to stop… ! Junwoo, you don’t know what just happened..?! Your heart just stopped..!!”

sniff-

Minerva explained, wiping away tears.

More than that, my heart stopped for a second… ?

While my consciousness was in the book, did the recoil stop my heart?

Since there was no pain left, it was a feeling of bewilderment because I couldn’t feel it that much.

“The recoil is so… Perhaps it was because of the recoil of that time when Saten was awakening Mana.”

My mind is also a little depressed right now.

A lethargy of not wanting to do anything ran through my body, and I had the urge to take my life if I had the chance.

This is a rebound that reads someone else’s unfortunate past.

Remnants of the past affect my mind and body.

Minerva patted my chest and shouted.

“Hey, that’s why I didn’t want to show you… !! Just like back then, I almost died… !! What am I supposed to do without you, Junwoo..!!”

“… Well, you can live with the owl.”

“Don’t shorten it! Even if there are owls, it would be boring without you..!! Next time, never lend me a book!”

As Minerva said, she held me in my arms and wiped away her tears.

Is this the act of a goddess?

Oh, the believers will be disappointed.

I said as I stroked Minerva’s head.

“it’s okay. i’m not dying I don’t know if I’ll die of old age. If you see my future, I will never die.”

“… no. There is no such thing as absolute, Junwoo.”

I hugged and comforted Minerva, who was in tears.

And, in my heart, I agreed with Minerva’s words that there are no absolutes.

‘… There is no such thing as absolute.’

A future that never changes.

However, seeing Saten’s past, I found the light of hope.

rebirth.

If you return her feelings and tell her happiness, Saten will not choose death herself.

That fact was clear.

‘I’m changing Saten’s future.’

lest I hang myself lonely and die.

Recalling the memories of Saten’s emotions that remain in me.

I was determined.