Harry Potter and the Secret Treasures

87. Chapter 87 Peter's memories

    The bright moonlight climbed through the window into the Gryffindor Tower common room.

    In the place where the moon is not shining, a small figure is hiding under the chair and shivering.

    Peter Pettigrew cringed and twisted his hands, breathing almost out of breath.

    For twelve years, what he has been afraid of has finally happened. His former best friend, Sirius Black, escaped from Azkaban. He broke into Hogwarts, just in time, and there was even a wall between them.

    Peter understands that he sold Mr. and Mrs. to Voldemort. Potter, Black is coming to find revenge for himself. He wants to kill himself.

    He instinctively wants to escape, but he doesn't know where to hide. He knows Black too much. If the other person knows that he is still alive, then he will never give up.

    Even if there are hundreds of dementors here, even if the entire Hogwarts are turned upside down, Black will not back down, and he won't stop until he catches himself. This is Sirius Black, a real Gryffindor, a monster that never knows what fear and cowardice are.

    Maybe it’s the same as twelve years ago, and there is another fake death.

    This thought just emerged in Peter's mind and he was vetoed.

    This is not the muggle street twelve years ago. He is not only facing Black alone.

    Here is Hogwarts, the castle also has Dumbledore, Snape, Lupin, Professor McGonagall, the son of James and Lily, Harry, and the boy named Ivan Mason's, each of whom is smarter than himself, stronger than himself, and more courageous than himself.

    It’s too hard and too difficult to fool these people like you have cheated Sirius Black!

    Besides, after I escaped, where can I go?

    The Death Eater, who was still alive, won't let him go after the wind, and the Dark Lord failed after listening to his whistle.

    Until now, Peter did not understand that the person who was so powerful that even the name could not be mentioned, why was it beaten by a baby? He did not understand that he had chosen the strong side at the beginning, why did he go to this point?

    Everything seems to have returned to the dot, back to the time when I first entered school twenty years ago.

    Peter Pettigrew still remembers his admission to the branch ceremony. He was thin and small and he trembled toward Sorting Hat. He put on the hat, and Sorting Hat, who was big enough to cover his eyes, couldn't see the stage at all.

    He was too scared. He was like this when he was a child. He couldn’t do anything. He was weak, not smart enough, and had no extraordinary magical talent. He was afraid that he would be driven back by his hat. He was afraid to see his mother again. Eyes.

    "Difficult, very difficult!"Sorting Hat began to talk in his ear, "you are not a brave child, not enough wisdom, the spirit of not firm, unwilling to work hard, although pure blood is difficult to live in slytherin, and there is no Ravenclaw and Gryffindor the quality demanded , even if mediocre but the heart and unwilling to stay in the practical ordinary hufflepuff, let me think about it, where should you go? ”

    Yeah, where should I go?

    She lost her father's own life and her mother. Although her family was poor, her mother tried her best to buy all the magical equipment for herself. She had high hopes for herself. Before going to bed every night, she told her the story of her father.

    Peter still remembers the mother's story. In her story, the father is a heroic Gryffindor. Even if he is not the strongest, he is fearless. Even if he faces someone who doesn't even mention his name, he has never been afraid. .

    Peter heard from her mother's tone that she was proud and proud of her father.

    "Gryffindor, Gryffindor, Gryffindor, I want to go to Gryffindor, I want to have courage, I am a brave person!"Peter shouted out loudly at Sorting Hat. "I want to change my timid and weak self. I want to be the same champion as my father. I want to be respected. I can't let my mother down!"

    "Gryffindor ?!"Sorting Hat's voice is a bit strange. "You said you are going to Gryffindor. Well, this may not be the best choice, but I hope that you can find the buried in the depths of the long road." The courage of his heart."

    "Gryffindor!"

    Peter Pettigrew under the chair smiled happily. It was the most brilliant moment in his life. He seemed to hear Sorting Hat once again screaming to everyone with the loud voice. He showed it again. Mother looks at her satisfied eyes.

    But his smile quickly solidified, and Sorting Hat said yes, he is not suitable for Gryffindor, he only got ridicule in this college.

    Everyone laughed at him for being brave. Hogwarts' academics made him feel pressure. He found that there was no course that he was good at. The professors looked at their eyes with no other feelings except disappointment. The more he asked his mother for his own. The farther it comes.

    He did not find courage in this college, he found himself more and more ordinary and inferior.

    Can't go on like this, he needs someone to help himself.

    Peter quickly discovered the goal. James Potter, Sirius Black, and Remus Lupin were the three best people in his class. The three people who formed the small group were always radiant, maybe they needed a follow-up.

    That's right, you can play this role perfectly.

    Fortunately, they accepted themselves. Peter Pettigrew once felt so happy and happy. He thought he could be as good as them. No, at least, he could become a sense of existence and become proud of his mother. !

    For this sense of presence and pride, Peter is willing to endure everything.

    In the eyes of outsiders, he is a member of this small group. He is a friend of James, Sirius and Lupin.

    But only Peter Pettigrew knows for himself that he is just a follow-up, and that's it.

    James sees him as an object that can show off his Quiddich talent at any time. His existence is just to better set off Sirius' courage and fearlessness. Even the werewolf Lupin, he also looks down on himself.

    Yes, the three of them have never regarded themselves as friends, but at best they are companions, but more often, he is still a follower who can be called at will.

    Weakness to humble, humble to negligible, I am afraid this is also the idea of ​​all.

    But Peter was once satisfied with this. He did not seek to stand in the middle of the stage and was noticed by everyone.

    As long as there is an inconspicuous position in the corner, it is enough for him to meet.

    He may not have found the courage he has been arrogant in this ancient college, but he relies on other means to gain the strength and honor he needs. Although not many, at the very least, the mother will not be disappointed.

    I hope to have the courage and the power to chase, there is no exclusion.

    After seven years of Hogwarts career, Peter finally understood that what he needed was not the brave courage, but the powerful power.

    If his father used to have that kind of power, he would die so much, and his life with his mother would not be so bitter.

    Powerful, this is what he has been pursuing.

    After graduating, his three companions wanted to join the Order of the Phoenix against Voldemort, and Peter wanted to refuse because he knew the strength of the two sides. But he did not dare, he was used to obeying the orders of three other people in the small group.

    He didn't dare to say no to his companions. It also required strong courage. He never had such a thing. Besides, he is also afraid of disappointing his mother. He knows that his mother wants to join the Order of the Phoenix.

    The mother’s expectations of herself have always made Peter feel pressure, but it was only then that he discovered that the pressure had become a heavy burden and he could not breathe.

    Peter Pettigrew remembers that days, when James, Sirius, and Lupin were happy that they had frustrated Voldemort's plot four times and again, he felt a bit more fear.

    He can feel the wrath of the Dark Lord. He can feel the hatred of the four people who don't even mention the name. It is like a never-ending nightmare.

    Can't go on like this anymore, Peter Pettigrew can't see the benefits of continuing to fight Voldemort himself, even if he risked his life to do these things, but only James, Sirius and Lupin will be honored.

    Not to mention Dumbledore is aging, his power is declining; and Voldemort is in full swing, his strength and power are growing stronger day by day.

    It's time to choose your own loyal camp. For a weak person, the most important thing is not to do something earth-shattering, but to make a wise choice.

    He can't die like his father, stupidly for Dumbledore, and this obsessive courage doesn't make any sense except to leave a heavy burden and sadness to his wife and children.

    He wants to choose his own destiny, he wants to gain powerful power.

    The Dark Lord has promised him, and as long as he unifies the magic circle, he will gain power, power and status that were previously unimaginable.

    Although the methods are different, as long as there is such a thing, the mother will be proud of herself again.

    As for the embarrassment and self-blame of betraying his companions, Peter has never felt this way.

    Anyway, in their eyes, they are just a follow-up, and they have always been.