Desire

Epilogue

Asin, who opened his eyes, quietly got out of bed. On a wide bed lies the fragrance of Raw Snow and Persian sheets. After looking at them, Ajin smiled thinly. He motions without making a sound and stands at the window. I can see the night sky without clouds. Beneath it, there was a small, wavering sea.

With Mungyeonghee's immediate ceremony, Ajin and his family went on a trip to the sea. There shouldn't have been a great reason. There's plenty of time. Forever and ever, it seems like it will not end. It may go crazy in that long, long life, but Azin did not think of such a distant future.

The tranquility I had was so precious. Maybe one day it will go away. Yes, very far... one day. I wanted to stay true to it rather than think of such a distant future without even noticing it.

It was long.

Ajin thought, standing by the window. I think my life has been long enough. A life that only wanted selfish arousal arrived here. I, who was human but not human, changed like this.

It was good. I never thought I'd be this human, and I never thought I'd get this life.

‘That's why it's so precious. ’

I don't want to break it. Right now, and ever. I wanted to enjoy this long and long peace. Boring peace. I want to enjoy such peace as I never had before. So I refused Acacia's offer. Invasion of the other dimension. In fact, the previous azin would have accepted it. You may have thought about it quite a bit, but you probably, no, definitely accepted it.

Azin knew what he was. After all, it's over if you enjoy it. That's why I started the first time. I thought it would be fun. Not just First, but the rest of my life.

Not right now. That nonsense about invading the dimension. The future and irritation that I did not know would be so tempting, but it was not enough to break the serenity right away. I don't want to worry you. I didn't want to break the serenity I had with my own choices.

It's changed.

Ajin enjoyed his own transformation. This is also different from before. I'm satisfied with that. It is not without irritation in this calm everyday life. How can there be no stimulus when people and people live together? There's only so much difference. Azin smiles in relief. He had to laugh because he thought that he was so different from his old self.

I am satisfied.

Azin mutters in his mouth and opens the window. The cool night air made me feel good. This world, the world of First. As in other worlds, it will continue to change over time, and many things will happen. It's fun to look forward to that change. It's fun to be loved and be able to spend that time together.

“You awake?”

I heard a voice behind my back. With a frizzy sound, the black snow scent rises. She looks a little sleepy, and azin smiles as she looks at that sort of raw snowy face. Persian rises a little later than Raw Snow.

“Are you having second thoughts? ”

Persian rubs his sleepy eyes and asks. Asin slowly shakes his head across the question.

“No, I had a little bit to think about, but it's not that great. I can't even think about it. ”

“Well, that's a relief... but if you have any important concerns, let us know. You don't have to worry about it alone anymore. ”

In Persian's words, he nods, smiling. I am not alone. The fact has made me feel at ease. Now I'm used to it, but whenever I think I'm not alone, my heart is always warm.

“I'm completely out of my mind. ”

On the subject of that talk, the black snow scent yawned heavily. But like I said, I didn't intend to sleep any better. The scent of Raw Snow dragged the clothes off into the bulk and began to dress while sitting on the bed.

“So, shall we go for a walk? The sea is beautiful at night.”

Persian was also clothed. I wonder if it has changed emotionally at night. I wasn't in the mood to go to sleep right now. Eventually, the three of them decided to go for a night out for a walk in the sea.

“What about Camilla?”

“He's probably sleeping. You don't have to wake him...”

Raw snow opens the door and answers, but her answer does not lead to the end. It's because the door across the street opened as soon as Raw Snow opened. Beyond the door is Camilla, who looks sleepy, and Devello, who is always expressionless.

“Come with me. ”

Devello has spoken. Azin sees Devello coming out of Camilla's room and asks, "It's ridiculous."

“Why did you come out of that room? ”

“I can't sleep. ”

“You just woke me up...! ”

In Devello's words, Camila grunts in annoyed voice. The black snow scent gives Devello a stern look. Devello shrugs.

“I didn't think you'd take me if I followed you alone. ”

“Fast to see...”

Devello mutters, as Persian is absurd. Devello crosses his arms with Camilla, wanting to go for a night walk somehow. Camila mutters as she squeezes her hand into her sleepy eyes.

“... I was having a good dream...”

“It seemed so. He was calling out the name of Adim in his sleep. ”

“When did I do that? ”

In Devello's words, Camila shouts. In saying this, he felt like the flames were blazing in his mind, but he swallowed a big breath to avoid showing him. Once it became official, I didn't want to discuss my relationship with Adim anymore. I was just glad I didn't bring Adim on this trip.

In the dark night, the black sand is trampled on every step of the way. The sound of treading on the white sand overlaps with the sound of slow walking. Raw snow was holding Azin's right arm, and Persik was holding Azin's left. And Devello grabs Azin's collar behind his back.

“Do I have to walk like this? ”

Azin's spit was directed at Devello, not at Raw Snow or Persian, but he gave no answer. Eventually, Azin gave up and left Devello alone.

“You're welcome to sell. ”

The black snow scent clutching Azin's arm groans.

“Three women. Three women in less than a decade, six in the next decade. ”

“That's not going to happen. ”

“How do you know that? I'll live for hundreds of thousands of years. Living that long life, you might stick another woman in your side for free. ”

“Didn't you say it wouldn't happen? ”

“What are you trying to say you did well? ”

The smell of raw snow makes my lips tingle. I'm not angry, I'm upset. Azin sighs and tightly grasps the hand of the black snow scent holding his arm.

“To me, you are more meaningful and important than anything else. ”

There was no lie in that. I wonder what would have happened if I hadn't met Raw Snow. I wonder if I could be here now. Asin was able to answer that question absolutely not. I've met a lot of people, I've been through a lot. Among them, however, the first thing that became azin was the smell of Raw Snow.

“That makes the listener jealous. ”

Persian said with a bloody smile. At that point, Azin calmly holds Persian hands. Persian smiles thinly, feeling the warmth in his tight-knit hands. It didn't have to be the first time. I don't care about that. It's just, I'm with you right now. It was only good that we could be together in the future.

Devello sees those three and feels a small impulse. It was an impulse to want to get in between the three. But the impulse is the impulse. There's no need to rush. As Ajin has changed, so has Devello. I know the difference between the time we spent together and the bond we built together. Devello cannot enter between the three.

‘It's okay.'

There's plenty of time. Slowly, with understanding. It knows, but Devello does not place the collar of Azin in his grasp.

Azin stops walking. There is still time until sunrise. It seemed okay to wait until then. Camille, who looked sleepy, fell asleep in the dawn breeze and was no longer sleepy. Camila raises her head and asks.

“I saw the ocean. Where do you want to go next? ”

“Anywhere would be nice. It's a pretty big world. ”

There was a small sense of naivety. It was a delusion about the outside that Camilla didn't see. Ajin kicked his tongue small with regret. After a long time, the civilization of this world will grow as much as the outside world did, but it will take too long to get there. I had regrets, but I couldn't help it. There's no way out. I thought about asking Acacia to do that, but I had to refuse to think that Acacia might ask for something else in return for doing so.

About a thousand years? ’

Maybe shorter. It's a long time to be unrealistic, but Ajin will live through it. A lot longer than that.

[Don't you regret it?]

Suddenly, the smell of Raw Snow sent me a message like that. At this point, he stopped and looked back at the smell of raw snow.

[Regret what?]

[I wish.]

Cough. I felt a small amount of energy in the hand of Raw Snow holding Ajin's hand.

[Maybe, you know, other wishes are better. By praying for this wish... you won't be able to return to the reality that you were born and raised in.]

[For me, this is the reality.]

Ajin answered without hesitation.

[There is no way to do something like regret. I think living in this world is one of the best choices you can make.]

There was no lie in that. I couldn't think of any more wishes. At the words of Azin, the smell of Raw Snow quietly opened his eyes and stared at him. A little later, the smell of Raw Snow was pale and smiling.

I thought you were praying for us.]

Raw Snow sent a message.

[The game was the end of the world. Maybe I'm... back in my old world.]

[Do you want to go back?]

[It can't be. There's no more foolishness in the world I used to live in.]

I liked the answer.

Ajin is familiar with the unconventional and impersonating smile he is building. I've never laughed like this before. Now, that smile comes naturally. Azin looks at the black snowflake and Persian scent holding his hands, and glances back at Devello holding his collar behind his back. I gave Camilla the same look.

[I don't have foolishness either.]

Ajin replied to the scent of raw snow in a polite mood.

After watching the sunrise, you return to the villa. Camila wakes up completely, listening to her chattering, and Azin sits on the dining table. In the bright-looking kitchen, Raw Snow and Persian cuisine were preparing breakfast by their hands, and Devello was also helping to prepare. Raw snow didn't like Devello much, but it didn't drive him out of the kitchen.

“I wish Adim had come with me. ”

“You can't do that. ”

Camila mutters on the other side, and Azin immediately replies to make Camila's lips pop.

“And there's no need to rush. ”

Azin mutters, tapping the tablecloth with his fingertips.

“There's plenty of time. ”

Yeah, it is.

There's plenty of time.

A long, long time. Think about the time you will go through and the future you don't know what will happen. Maybe someday Adim and Camila will get married. I didn't want to imagine it at the moment, but maybe... when the time comes, I will not react so strongly and allow it.

Maybe one day. Ajin may also have a new child. Originally, black snow and Persian flavors were impossible to conceive, but it no longer matters. A miracle caused by Azin the god can be changed into an impossible miracle.

Maybe it's not the same relationship with Devello anymore. I never imagined it either, but maybe. Yeah, maybe. Maybe in the distant future.

Maybe Camille will have a child. If so, will I be a grandfather? Azin laughed as he thought about it. I couldn't imagine Camilla marrying someone, but it seemed not surprisingly bad to be called Grandpa.

The distant future.

Azin smiled, thinking about the future.