Cold Palace’s Abandoned Consort

I was silent for a while and said, "Is it Princess Lechang, and Xu Deyan?"

As soon as I heard it, my eyes lightened suddenly: "Yes, it is Princess Lechang," she smiled and looked up at me: "Mother, you are so amazing, have you heard this story?"

I smiled lightly: "It's just a little story."

"is it?"

"Yes."

Lier looked at me for a while, then nodded, seemingly understandable.

Then, she and I were silent for a while. I didn't talk for a while. I just leaned on the couch quietly and felt Lier lie in my arms. The feeling of even breathing can make me slightly. The hesitant breath just calmed down.

After a while, Lier said, "But mother, that person is so wasteful."

"what?"

"He took so many people out with me, but when I was eating, only I and him were sitting, and everyone else could only stand."

"..."

"I asked them to sit down and eat, and they refused any of them."

"..."

"Also, it's clear that only the two of us have dinner, but that table, such a large table, is full of it. The dishes on the shop's water card are all served."

"..."

"But he didn't eat many dishes, and some of them only ate one bite."

I smiled slightly, and didn't intend to explain anything, just smiled lightly: "Maybe, those dishes don't suit his appetite."

"So, why does he let others eat a bite before I eat anything. That's strange."

"... He's someone to help you taste salty."

Lier pursed his lips and said, "Which is so troublesome, would it be okay for me to taste it? Also, when I was going to drink the soup, he also took the bowl by himself and blew it before giving it to me, and feeding I drink."

"... So, did you drink it?"

"No." Lier shook his head and said solemnly: "You have taught me long ago, mother, you have to do your own things. I am nine years old, I will eat by myself, no need to feed."

"So what did he say?"

Lier shook his head again and said, "He didn't say anything, but just-I don't know why. It seemed like he was in a bad mood. After that, he didn't talk anymore during the meal."

"..."

I looked at Lier's shiny eyes, and for a moment didn't know what to say.

At this moment, the sadness in his heart surged up, I thought, maybe his sadness at that time was the same as mine.

We all missed too many moments in Lie ’s life, her teeth, her toddler, the joy of her first smile, the grievance of her first cry, every part of her should have been unforgettable Memory in our lives is a blank, irreparable regret.

And he missed more than I missed.

Thinking of this, I lowered my head, looked at Lier's round black and white eyes, and the slender eyelashes that fluttered like butterfly wings, and then gently kissed her smooth forehead.

At this moment, Lier looked up at me, his round eyes blinked, and the candlelight in the room was more and more clear and bright. She said seriously, "Mother, I really listen to you I did n’t ask him for those things. I did n’t ask him for anything. After we ate and went shopping, he started to buy things for me. I said no, but he still let people down. Go and buy some things. I just took a curious look and he let people buy them. "

"..."

"I didn't really ask him for those things."

I wonder if I was looking at Lier ’s eager, but spotlessly clean eyes, or because I realized that at that moment, as a father, my mood was low and eager, I could not help reddening my eyes.

I can still understand him.

The kind of wanting to make up, wanting to make up for the moment, to make up for all the deficits, all the missing love and pampering in these years, want to fill the father and mother love absent in these years, even anxious Give everything for her.

But how is that possible?

Until now, between Lier and Han Ruoshi and Han Zitong, I still do n’t know, the childhood memories of her and her two sisters, and he has been absent even longer than me. Maybe he saw Lier After that, after a day together, I still couldn't recognize her calmly, and told her why she was her father?

I couldn't help but choked, and gradually, red eyes.

Lier lay in my arms, always quiet, as if listening to my heartbeat, but after a long silence, she raised her head gently, looked at me for a while, and said, "Mother, what's wrong with you? "

"……Ok?"

"Is mother sad?"

"..."

"Aren't you happy?"

"..."

I did n’t adjust my mood for a while, and I did n’t know how to calm myself to answer her question. Between these shame, Lier seemed to have thought a lot, saying, “Mother, you and Dad will agree with me tomorrow Go to Yangzhou again? "

"..."

I slowly stood up, looked down at my daughter in her arms, and her clean and clear eyes, and asked, "Do you want to go?"

"..."

"Are you willing to meet him again?"

"..."

This time, Lier was quiet.

Her expression also seemed to have become a little dignified, and there seemed to be a lot of tangled emotions in those black and white eyes.

I looked at her quietly.

The two were so silent for a long time, Lier looked up at me, gently, but nodded solemnly.

"I think."

"why?"

"..."

Li Er blinked, but this time, she didn't answer me, but after a long silence, she lowered her head gently and lay down in my arms, those little round arms around my waist , Holding me tightly, as if trying to draw a trace of quietness from me, a trace of clarity that can make her confused.

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She and I have been hugging like this, almost even I have forgotten the time, and when the maid knocked on the door gently and awakened me from the chaos of half dreams, the sky was completely dark.

When looking down, Lier fell asleep in my arms.

In fact, the weather is a bit hot. Even if it is slightly cold in the evening, it is enough for two people to hug each other like this. Li's little face was reddish, and there were fine beads of sweat on her forehead and nose, but this did not affect her safety of falling asleep in her mother's arms.

I stroked her forehead, kissed her gently, and hugged her slowly. The maids hurried forward to take her carefully and hugged her to the bed.

Lier smashed his mouth, rolled over, and fell asleep again.

I sat by the bed watching her contented sleep, smiled slightly, and then turned to a maid and said, "Keep your watch, don't wake her up."

"Mrs. Don't worry."

I nodded, and looked back at the door again, watching Lier still sleep soundly, and then closed the door and went out.

An attendant picked me up at the door with a lantern, and I followed him in the almost deserted garden.

Speaking of these days, I don't have such a mood to visit the garden at night. At this moment, it is all dark, and only the faint red light from the lantern in front illuminates a small bluestone road, and the road has become a little strange Already. I could only follow closely behind the attendant, wait until he stopped and saw the faint candlelight coming out of the window in front, and I realized that he had taken me to the room before Pei Yuanxiu.

The attendant stopped at the door and turned back respectfully to me and said, "Madam, my son is inside."

I nodded and walked over and knocked gently.

The door opened as soon as it was knocked.

Pei Yuanxiu stood at the door and looked at me calmly and tenderly.

"You came."

"Ok."

"Come, come in."

"it is good."

He stepped aside and I stepped in.

This room is not that I haven't seen it. When I first arrived in Jinling, I was here for healing and healing. Of course, I wouldn't even notice who this room was at that time, and I have only reacted now. I was taken back to the mansion by the river, and lived directly in his room.

Thinking about it, years have passed.

And here I opened my eyes for the first time and saw almost exactly the same look. Nothing has changed, not even the people I met here.

Probably, only the mood has changed.

But it can also be seen that Han Zitong's thoughts spent here, otherwise, after so many years, how can a room that has been forgotten be arranged exactly like the original.

I walked to the table, and when he looked back, he had already closed the door, and the little night breeze that had just blown in was shaking the candle, and it was about to go out. He went to the candlestick, guarding the candle with one hand, one The hand gently picked the heart of the candle, and the flame fluttered slowly.

Then he turned back and smiled at me.

He has also been bathed, and put on a white stool. His long hair is also hanging behind his head. Beyond Junyi, there is a different kind of leisure and comfort. The orange candle is shining on him. A warm breath was also revealed on his body.

I also smiled slightly.

He came over and sat down, reaching for the cup on the table and pouring tea, and said, "Are you asleep?"

"Ok."

"Tired to play?"

"It looks like it."

"She, have fun?"

"..."

I was a little hesitant for a while, but after a while I said, "It's okay. She hasn't been to Yangzhou, everything is new to her."

He poured a cup of tea and gently placed it in front of me, then poured himself a cup, and then looked up at me: "She, I don't know yet, is that her biological father?"

I nodded. "She doesn't know yet."

Pei Yuanxiu's eyes flickered and he said, "I thought that he would see Lier this time and he would definitely recognize her and disclose her princess identity, but he did not expect that he was completely absent."

I could not help but frowned.