Breaking Up With the Heroine in an Otome Game

48 – Why are you talking to me (8)

048.

As if to represent Jin So-yeon’s feelings, the dark night sky covered the world like a large curtain.

As thick clouds consumed the moonlight, pitch-black darkness took over the area.

An unexpected darkness filled Jin So-yeon’s room, where the light had disappeared.

There was no moonlight smiling shyly from beyond the window as usual, nor was there starlight scattering soft light powder.

Only the brilliant night view of the city was dispelling the thick darkness, but Jin So-yeon’s residential area was strangely subdued today.

Is it already night…? ….

Jin So-yeon, who returned home after finishing all her work, quietly looked out the window, then immediately shook her head and fell onto the bed.

Only the soft feel of the bed gently comforted Jin So-yeon’s tired heart.

“…… Ha.”

Without turning on the light in the room, she quietly closed her eyelids in the dark shadows.

As I closed my cold eyelids, the events that had happened earlier replayed in my mind more clearly.

‘Siwoon didn’t say anything.’

When he asked the stupid question of whether he was interested in him, Lee Si-woon chose to remain silent.

She pursed her lips three or four times as if she was trying to say something, but she just maintained her silence.

For a moment, only awkward silence fell between the two.

It was a very brief silence, but the fact that she did not answer right away was answer enough.

Sometimes silence holds more meaning than ten words.

Soon, Jin So-yeon let out an awkward laugh and awkwardly avoided the situation by saying that she was just doing it and that it was a joke.

The purpose was to provide Lee Si-un with an escape hole so as not to cause him any more trouble.

If I had to wait any longer for an answer, only Lee Si-un would have been in trouble.

At the same time, this was also the part where Jin So-yeon’s cowardice was revealed.

In fact, it seems like you’re going to get a different answer than you thought about the topic you asked, so it’s like you’re subtly withdrawing your foot.

Jin So-yeon’s refusal to respond was a kind of psychological defense mechanism.

She is making room for herself by not answering directly.

There is a possibility that it is simply Jin So-yeon’s illusion.

Of course, she knew she wouldn’t do that, but a 0% chance and a 1% chance were really like heaven and earth.

When grading a test paper, you already know that something is wrong, but like a test taker, you rely on the possibility of the unknown.

Because you will not know the exact answer until you open the answer sheet.

‘I’m such a coward.’

Yes.

Cowardly.

You asked the question yourself and then foolishly ran away.

What was Lee Si-un thinking at that time?

I still can’t forget Lee Si-woon’s face when he suddenly received Jin So-yeon’s question. He feels a pang of conscience. He wasn’t asking that question in the first place.

‘I thought Siwoon would say no.’

Jin So-yeon let out a deep sigh.

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For some reason, my chest felt stuffy and stuffy, so I had no choice but to vent out the heat inside.

‘Why has this happened again?’

She thought that since she had been hanging out since middle school, she would be able to be friends rather than just men and women.

In particular, isn’t Lee Si-woon good-looking, rich, talented, and from a wealthy family?

It was obvious that she had grown up watching girls who were much more capable, richer, and pretty(?) Than Jin So-yeon, so she thought she had no rational interest in Jin So-yeon.

To put it bluntly, Jin So-yeon is just a common girl with a rather smooth face.

Especially since she was Lee Si-woon, who had never shown any rational interest in girls.

She said, ‘There were strange rumors going around about what Shiwoon thought of me, but she ignored them, saying they were just rumors.’

Because she was Jin So-yeon, who suffered from all sorts of rumors, she believed it well unless she had experienced it herself.

And now, Jin So-yeon’s habits are holding her back.

Because of this, Jin So-yeon could not predict what kind of thoughts her Lee Si-woon was looking at her……

– You really didn’t know?

Moment.

– Actually, you kind of noticed it, didn’t you?

Her own thoughts and voices, slowly resonating from a secret place in her heart, shook her head.

– Asking Lee Si-woon if he was interested was an extremely intentional action, right?

Jin So-yeon’s other voice, revealing her raw emotions without hiding, only struck my ears with intensity.

– You knew very well that Lee Si-woon would not nod obediently to your question in a situation where he was having a hard time because of a stalker like Choi Chang-won.

No, I… ….

– You wanted to use this as a psychological breakwater after hearing directly from Lee Si-woon that it was not right, right? Also, she secretly wanted to nail Lee Si-un. By letting her say with her own mouth that she doesn’t like it.

Jin So-yeon unconsciously thought that way?

That can’t be possible.

Never.

– You know. To be honest, it was a bit annoying when other boys said they liked you, right?

It was a bit more embarrassing than annoying.

Jin So-yeon said she just wanted to help people and make a lot of friends, both men and women.

In the process, Jin So-yeon was a little disturbed because several boys often showed interest in Jin So-yeon while her face was blushing.

Because she thought that Jin So-yeon could be friends with both men and women.

A boy who was her close friend until yesterday suddenly confesses or expresses his feelings the next day?

What can I say… ….

It is quite, very, very difficult.

Because Jin So-yeon had no choice but to reveal her intention to refuse.

The boy whose confession was rejected often laughed awkwardly, saying that they should just remain friends, but eventually the relationship ended.

There were quite a few children who lost their friendship like that.

Every time she saw the faces of her friends turning away with bitter smiles, Jin So-yeon felt quite uncomfortable about such a situation occurring.

It wasn’t the boy’s fault and it wasn’t Jin So-yeon’s fault, so why does this creepy situation have to repeat itself?

That’s why Jin So-yeon…….

– I asked Jinhyuk to have a fake romantic relationship so that the boys wouldn’t confess.

After becoming a fake romantic partner with Lee Jin-hyuk, the number of boys who reveal their feelings or confess their feelings has decreased significantly.

Most boys maintained their own boundaries just because they had a lover.

I couldn’t tell if he was satisfied with remaining among her friends or if he was taking advantage of her future opportunities.

Of course, there are cases where pretty close boys confess, but wouldn’t it be completely absurd to confess to someone you have a lover with?

Since she often confessed her feelings by disparaging Lee Jin-hyuk, whom she was already dating under false pretenses, Jin So-yeon was able to reveal her rejection without feeling much discomfort.

-And she also liked pretending not to know on purpose, right?

I’m not pretending not to know.

I really didn’t know.

How can you know what all the other boys are thinking?

Jin So-yeon also tried to keep her conduct straight.

She did not stay closer than necessary to her common friends, who secretly revealed her rational favors.

I don’t want to give anything like lychee just in case.

However, there are several cases that are quite difficult for Jin So-yeon.

When I thought that my friend of the opposite s*x, with whom I had already had many interactions and friendships, might actually like Jin So-yeon as a woman.

In that case, not only was it difficult for her to carelessly widen the distance, but it was also quite difficult for her to pretend to know anything.

If she had made a mistake, her current relationship could have been ruined.

And Jin So-yeon could not help but feel quite stressed just by being aware of this fact.

– So, to put your mind at ease, didn’t you intentionally think like that, saying that there was no way that boy would like me, that it must be my imagination?

No, that’s not true.

– If you think about it paradoxically, firmly believing that you won’t like it while citing various reasons can also mean that you have sensed to some extent that you like it, right?

That’s funny.

– Really? Can you say with certainty that you had no idea that close friends like Lee Si-woon and Jin-hyuk liked you? Didn’t you intentionally make it more flirtatious?

Yes, I didn’t know, I didn’t know.

– If I thought about it with common sense, I would have heard rumors secretly going around and seeing and hearing the reactions of the kids in my class, but I really didn’t know the truth, la… ….

Jin So-yeon wanted to cover her ears.

-She didn’t want to know? And she had to not know again.

But the voice that comes from the unconscious continues to echo in my head.

– You secretly felt comfortable pretending to be insensitive and unaware, right? Is not it? Even if something goes wrong later on, you can just take the stance that you didn’t know about it.

Emotions and thoughts that were not consciously expressed were running around in my head.

The more she tried not to think, the deeper she fell into the abyss.

– You’re just too scared and too greedy.

Slowly, very slowly.

– It’s scary that children who were close friends confess to me on their own, and it’s scary that the relationship ends after they reject the confession.

It gently caresses my ear like a snake.

– But I don’t want to give up playing as a hero and as a friend.

Soon, the voice came.

– Really…….

I can hear it clearly in Jin So-yeon’s ears.

“…… “Aren’t you greedy?”

“Huh, huh?”

Jin So-yeon was startled when a voice suddenly rang out in her home alone.

What, what! Who is it?!

She wondered if a robber had broken in, but when she saw her face sitting on her desk chair, she couldn’t control her embarrassment.

This is because the person staring at her was someone Jin So-yeon was familiar with.

‘Me, it’s me, right?’

This is Jin So-yeon.

The identity of the woman staring blankly with her grave face was none other than Jin So-yeon herself.

“Now, wait a minute, how did this happen…?” … ?”

“Soyeon, Jin Soyeon.”

Before she had time to organize her confused thoughts, another Jin So-yeon quietly approached her.

When she saw the face of Jin So-yeon, who was staring at her with an expressionless face, she started drooling for no reason.

“A childhood friend and a rich boy who have been hanging out for a long time actually have a crush on you, Soyeon…… It’s a situation that seems like something out of a female-oriented novel I read a long time ago. Yes? You enjoyed reading that novel back then. “I’ve imagined that at least once.”

“What, what are you saying! “What are you?”

“Are you pretending not to notice and enjoying this situation in your own way?”

“Don’t be funny!”

Snow.

Her eyes met hers.

Another Jin So-yeon’s eyes are looking quietly.

Golden eyes that seem to get you sucked in. It is not as brilliant as usual and has a dark shade.

I don’t know why, but those eyes are scary.

Especially because it reminds me of my past self.

“Soyeon, let’s be a little more honest.”

The eyes are the window to the heart.

A window into and out of the heart.

Another Jin So-yeon is looking through the window.

Those eyes seem to penetrate Jin So-yeon’s heart.

Jin So-yeon’s face reflected in his eyes is as hard as a stone, and his eyebrows are just fluttering.

“You know. “How many people have been hurt by your selfish actions?”

“Oh, no, that’s it.”

“How many boys can really be friends with a girl as beautiful as you?”

“What are you talking about?”

“You knew very well that it was actually difficult for men and women to become friends. But I guess I had to deny it. “To satisfy your greed.”

“It’s not like that, it’s not like that.”

Jin So-yeon suddenly shook her shoulders.

“So you didn’t make Jinhyuk a fake lover? To prevent boys from openly showing favor. “The only person I could ask for was Jinhyuk, and she wouldn’t have refused, so it must have been good to take advantage of her.”

“…… Shut up.”

“And you said that she asked for that because she didn’t know if Jinhyuk liked it.”

“…… “It’s noisy.”

“Really? Have you really never thought that Jinhyuk would like you? “Are you really serious?”

Speak softly into your ear.

“Actually, I expected it to a certain extent…… Ugh?!”

“I told you it was noisy!”

As if she could no longer hold back her anger, Jin So-yeon started to rush at her other self in no time.

And.

***

“Ha! Ha! hahahaha…… ?!”

Jump up!

Jin So-yeon stood up with her upper body drenched in sweat.

Cold sweat was running down her temples.

Her heart was pounding.

She gasped and turned her head.

Jin So-yeon was the only one in her room. She didn’t seem like another version of herself. She had no sight or voice. She was just very still.

As she looked at the clock, she could see that it was already 4 am.

“Ha, uh, what…… ?”

No way, no way.

Is it a dream?

Dream?

“It was like a nightmare, I…… ?”

She didn’t know when she had fallen asleep, but she had a really unpleasant dream.

It gives me goosebumps even now thinking about the dream of another woman saying stupid things and then fighting.

“Ha…… Really. She must be very stressed, she’s having all these nightmares…….”

Jin So-yeon took a deep breath and slowly lifted her head.

I saw a full-length mirror in the distance.

She couldn’t see well because the light was dim, but Jin So-yeon’s night vision was quite bright, and she was able to realize that she was making a very cold expression in the mirror.

Jin So-yeon’s face is slightly wrinkled, with her dark hair down, as if all of her light has been absorbed.

She looked so cold that it was hard to believe that she was her usual Jin So-yeon.

She was always smiling, so it was easy to mistake her, but when she frowned or had an expressionless expression, Jin So-yeon gave a colder impression than Lee Si-un.

Jin So-yeon in her mirror reminded her of her past self.

Before I met Lee Jin-hyuk, I was overcome by evil.

“… ….”

Jin So-yeon reflexively tightened her fists.

Actually, she knows.

She can’t just avoid it like this.

I can’t stay quiet like this.

“…… I’m afraid that my friendship will fall apart. It certainly is. But.”

Jin So-yeon looked into the mirror and suddenly made up her mind.

“But I still have to say it clearly. “Don’t avoid it anymore.”

She said she was really sorry for asking Jinhyuk for a fake romantic relationship without knowing that she liked him.

To Lee Si-un, if he likes her, he is really sorry.

I plan to speak clearly and not pretend not to know.

Even if there are cracks in our current friendship.

For sure.

– Really? Have you really never thought that Jinhyuk would like you? Are you really serious?

Before lying down in bed again.

She was in a nightmare. The words she had mentioned passed through her mind, but Jin So-yeon tried to ignore them and went back to sleep.

Because I really didn’t know that fact.

…… Really.