After I Stopped Sponsoring, the Female Leads Began Obsessing Over Me

59 – Lina’s Despair

“Cadet Lina Roswell. Probation ends at this time. You may come out.”

The day the ratings were all over.

Lena Roswell is out after her long probation.

Her red hair, which draped over her shoulders, became frizzy. Underneath her eyes were red swollen from how much she cried, along with deep dark circles.

Clothes draped casually, hair roughly combed, shoulders drooping.

She walked down the street holding a black handkerchief tied around her neck like a choker in one hand and holding a note in the other hand.

It’s been a long time since the ratings were finished.

Even the occasional passers-by paused briefly, not realizing that she was Lena Roswell.

However, Lina’s gaze was different from her languid gait.

Her eyes were full of hope.

The reason was simple.

Because the note she held in her hand was the home address of Ian Black Angus.

— If you have nowhere else to live later, come here.

A note that I handed over with my lunch box one day.

She thought she was abandoned, but when she looked for any trace of Ian, she found it. How happy she was when she found it stuck among the presents she had brought from her friends.

“De, I can finally meet you.”

I can finally meet Ian.

I endured only with that thought.

Probation in a dorm with nothing.

She thought of Ian every hour, every minute, every second.

It was nice to be able to do that.

Because I was able to try to understand what kind of suffering he went through and what situation he was in.

‘Those questions Ian sometimes asked… It must be because he was wrongly framed.’

Because Lina could realize what she had done wrong and why she was so stupid.

‘I thought too much of myself and ignored Ian like an idiot.’

Even though I am such a foolish, watery, worthless person… I was able to somehow apologize to Ian and think of a way to be of some help to him.

I was fortunate to be able to think of Ian,

It was hell not being able to meet Ian.

Lina’s steps quickened.

In front of the door of Ian’s dorm, where he finally arrived.

“This is Ian’s house…”

Lina hurriedly put the note in her hand into her pocket.

She then raised her hand to knock.

Lina, who placed her hand on her door, stopped abruptly.

—Badle Bouncer

Shaky hands as if addicted to drugs.

‘M-M… What if Ian doesn’t open it…?’

What if Ian is bothered by knocking?

Or what if you get mad at me to quit?

What if, for the first time in a while, they saw that Lina was herself and ignored them?

— Thump thump

Suddenly, her heart skipped a beat.

Obviously, the previous Lina hadn’t been this kind of a troubled personality.

If there is a door, open it and say ‘Hello!’ The personality that makes Bessy smile, that was Lina.

But now it’s different.

I am so afraid.

She kept having bad thoughts.

‘If Ian doesn’t really meet you…?’

In front of my eyes it suddenly gets dark.

She fainted a few times during probation.

At this rate, she’ll come this far and collapse.

That doesn’t mean anything.

‘Two, I have to knock.’

Lina knocked on her door with all her might.

— Knock. Knock.

“Um, that’s Ian? It’s me, me Lee, Lina…”

I have definitely refined my voice, but it keeps cracking.

“Now, there’s something I want to talk about…”

The words that come out because you feel like you have to say something.

I prepared better words, but I can’t remember.

“……”

A door with no answer.

Lina swallowed her saliva.

‘It’ll come out in a little while… I’m sure.’

Five minutes passed like that.

‘Maybe he’s washing…?’

Ten minutes have passed.

“Hey, is that Ian?”

It is quiet without any answer.

Are you not at home?

But the lights are on.

There is no way Ian will go out somewhere after work.

That means… As expected.

‘…You don’t want to meet me.’

Like a puppy abandoned by its owner, her eyes drooped.

She also lowered her head.

For Lina herself, meeting him was really her first priority, but she wasn’t the same for Ian.

‘I know that this was my problem.’

When she was with Ian, she always thought only of herself.

She didn’t think about Ian’s feelings, she only thought about her own.

She

She must have reflected countless times.

Again and again.

I didn’t even think about whether Ian would have the heart to meet him, and I ran all the way here with just that crazy feeling of wanting to see him right now.

But what about now?

It was clear that Ian did not want to see Lina himself.

Lina bit her lower lip.

She herself is selfish.

‘But, but… You never know.’

If there is even a 1% chance that Ian wants to talk to me, I want to bet anything on it.

“Wait, I finally got to meet you like this…”

Lina grabbed her spirits and knocked on her door.

— Knock. Knock. Knock.

“I-I know I was really wrong. So Ian… Please. Please…”

— Knock. Knock. Knock.

“I have a lot to say. I’ve been thinking really hard. I was really wrong. So just me once. Please listen to me just once. Please. Please. Please. Please please.”

— Knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock….

Lina’s hand, which was hitting her door, fell.

The back of her red, swollen hand.

She no longer had the strength in her hands.

Because of this, she can’t call Ian.

I can’t hang on.

“Ah… No way.”

Lina’s face starts to turn pale.

Breathing becomes shallow.

No matter how much she tries to breathe, her chest won’t move.

It’s just empty wind.

Only then do you realize the reality.

“Oh, I know. I know. You don’t want to see me anymore…”

Maybe we will have a chance to share a word.

Her hopes that she had were dashed.

Ian doesn’t want to see me.

I don’t want to share a word.

The thoughts that popped out like that consumed Lina.

“Ouch.”

She was choking.

It doesn’t feel like her throat is being strangled, it feels like someone is squeezing her heart.

The world is turning black.

She raised her left hand instead of her right, which no longer moved.

— Smart smart smart smart smart smart smart smart smart smart

Keep hitting the door.

If this doesn’t open, I really… I really thought I would die like this.

Ian doesn’t want to see me.

It is suitable for someone who is insignificant to live in a place where Ian’s eyes do not reach.

That would be helpful for Ian.

“Help me. Ian. Please. Please. I did something wrong. Huh? Just once. Look at me once and I won’t bother you again. Seriously! So please see me just once. Please. Please. Please. Huh? Please. Please….”

That, but…

I don’t know if that will help.

If I give my body and mind, Ian will look after me.

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I’d rather be a slave in front of him.

I thought that would be comfortable.

I couldn’t think of any other way to live.

“Please, please… Please…”

Tears continued to flow.

Wet the clothes and wet the floor.

Still knocking on the door.

How long has it been?

— Ttogak Ttogak

The sound of footsteps coming from far away.

“Lina… Roswell?”

Her head turned at the sound of her voice calling her.

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Lina Roswell leans forward as if collapsing at the door of Ian’s dorm.

‘Wow.’

Sylvia swallowed her astonishment at her miserable appearance.

She shed so many tears that she could see through her wet dress.

On the second visit, there were other women at the door both times… But she looked embarrassed enough to forget the feeling of jealousy for a moment.

“Are you okay?”

Sylvia asked about Lina’s well-being without realizing it.

Looking at Sylvia with her trembling eyes, Lina’s eyes drooped.

“It’s not Ian… Black. I’m sorry. I’m sorry Ian… Open the door. Just once please. Please…”

— Kung kung

Lina knocking on the door with her forehead.

Sylvia hurriedly stopped Lina.

“Well, wake up. Mr. Ian is probably not home right now.”

Lina’s eyes are struggling to focus.

“Ian… Isn’t there?”

“Yes. He’s probably quite busy right now. Since he went up over 1 star at once in this ranking, many guilds must have attached to him.”

“Oh, it’s not there.”

Lina wiped away the tears with the backs of her hands.

Then she smiles and smiles.

“I, I… Ian is in the house, I thought he didn’t open it when he saw me. Thank goodness. Thank God.”

Lina’s green eyes instantly become lively.

Even her pale face is flushed with blood.

“I’m sorry you looked bad.”

Lina Roswell stands up and smiles as if nothing has happened.

Seeing that, Sylvia unconsciously asked.

“Aren’t you ashamed?”

“Huh?”

“That look.”

Looking at her own condition, Lina scratches her head and smiles.

“… A little? hehehe. But shame isn’t that important.”

“?”

“Now I have another chance to meet Ian. Nothing else is important to me.”

A pleasant voice full of energy.

This is the original Lina that Sylvia knew.

But for some reason, chills ran down her spine.

Lina looked at Sylvia and tilted her head.

“But Sylvia, why did you come to Ian’s house?”

“Ah, this is a hard-to-get dessert to share…”

Sylvia stuttered her words.

Rina’s eyes were close to serenity, but she was somehow scared. Lina’s obsession with Ian seemed oddly dangerous.

Sylvia asked cautiously.

“…Are you jealous?”

But Lina shook her head with a bright smile on her face.

“No. Thanks to Sylvia, Ian can eat something delicious. I like it when Ian is happy. Thank you.”

“Ah…”

“I’m still envious. If I had money, I would have bought a lot of nice things for Ian. Ehehehe.”

“I didn’t buy it! I just stayed and brought it!”

“I’m envious of that too. You mean Ian has something to give you. I don’t have anything in my dorm? I’m worried about how to repay you.”

Sylvia realized.

‘It’s just that you’ve become a hukou.’

Lena Roswell is just to Ian right now and she’s just a hoe.

Sylvia sighed at that blind obsession.

For some reason, it feels like one competitor has increased.

‘Why is this house so popular…’

Sylvia blankly stared at Ian’s door.

At first she thought she was definitely a blue ocean.

‘After jumping in, it’s an infinitely red ocean…’

This fierce competition is not to Sylvia’s liking.

But since she has already jumped in, she has no intention of conceding.

‘Still, I think I’m way ahead of myself?’

She immediately remembered the cat coming out of Ian’s door, but… Sylvia shook her head.

That angry cat is nothing more than a bonus or a pet. Originally, kids who try to compete with cuteness don’t last long.

Be of direct help to her opponent.

“Oh right.”

The reason I came to see Ian. Partly because of the dessert, but also because of the convening of the disciplinary committee.

If Lena Roswell were a woman… She might be quite helpful.

“By the way, Lina, there’s one thing you could do for her Ian.”

“Me, really?!”

Lina has been hanging on at once.

“Then can I meet Ian?”

Lina looked up at Sylvia with her eyes shining.

That figure is as cute as a dog that heard the footsteps of her owner returning.

Sylvia let out a sigh inside her.

‘From cats to dogs… Am I doing a good job?’

But the priority is to make things work out for Ian.

Sylvia nodded her head towards Lina.