After I Stopped Sponsoring, the Female Leads Began Obsessing Over Me

42 – Full Moon Night (8)

“Eat it. I made it.”

Rina looked at the lunchbox placed in front of her eyes.

A luxurious container. There was a faintly pleasant smell in it.

— Blink. Blink.

Lina’s head bent over her.

Ian Black Angus.

He was looking this way expressionlessly.

As if it were a cool expression.

But now Lina knows.

The fact that he must have shown this kind of kindness to other children, whether yesterday or today. And that kindness is kindness with a purpose.

“…….”

Lina is always kind.

It was her nature, and at the same time, the expectation of others, and the frame she wrapped herself in.

Lina had the confidence to treat the other person warmly or kindly no matter what they did.

But despite being that kind of girl, Ian’s appearance suddenly made me angry.

‘… It’s a little, but I expected it.’

It was different for him.

It wasn’t a big emotion, but I was curious about it, albeit in a very small and trivial way.

Why are you doing so well? Feelings of anticipation and curiosity.

The excitement of being different from the other kids.

It was none other than Ian’s attitude that trampled on that.

And yet, when I saw this brazenly handing out a lunch box, I suddenly became angry.

Lina’s face flushed slightly.

Heated sheep cheeks.

Lina herself was embarrassed for a moment, and then bit her lower lip.

‘Does it look easy because I treat you so well?’

That was the reason.

For the first time, there was a crack in Lina’s ‘kindness’.

It is a hole as small as the expectations I had for a human named Ian.

Lina unknowingly fired at her Ian.

“Are you giving me this lunchbox to eat?”

“Yes.”

“Why?”

The question cuts into monosyllables so coldly that even Rina herself is embarrassed.

“… Huh?”

Ian asked back stupidly.

Even that stupidity made her even more angry because she seemed to be making fun of herself.

“Why are you giving it to me?”

The acting of Ian Black Angus, who pretended to be cool, was also smashed right away.

The guy started stuttering his words.

“This…This. Over there. That, me, me. I’m left behind. I’m making it.”

“Aha. That’s left to make. Is there anyone else in the class who wants to take care of like me?”

“No. It’s not like that. The bento is only for you…”

“Ah. This ‘lunchbox’ is only given to me?”

Lina smiled like a habit.

But the tips of her lips quivered.

“That’s such an honor. But why me?”

“Uh…?”

“Why me.”

“That, that’s. Somehow, I found out that your family is having a hard time. My, I’m going to take care of it a little bit.”

To take care of you.

If she was normal, she would have felt grateful for the good heart anyway.

But. Doing it to anyone who takes care of it like this?

‘Ha!’

My stomach was boiling.

I was very annoyed.

I don’t know why, but this is the first time I’ve really felt this way.

That’s why no words just come out.

“You think I’m a beggar?”

“Oh, no… That’s not the case”

“Then what is it? Why are you giving me something like this?”

“That, that. Because that looks hungry…”

Ian is visibly upset.

It’s infinitely pathetic.

Lina grabbed the lunch box he gave her.

“Aha. Just sympathize with me.”

“Ah…”

” Indeed. Friends can take care of things like this, right?”

“Yeah, yes. We’re friends.”

My friend is an asshole.

I heard you came here in person to confess today as well.

I could tell from the guy’s attitude.

That’s why Lina deliberately smiled.

“Ah~ sorry ahahahaha! I must have been a little mistaken. I wonder if you’re confessing to me?”

“…….”

“Can’t friends do that? Right?”

“…Eh.”

“Okay. Thanks Ian. Your sympathy will be appreciated.”

It’s good to take care of you. Pretending to be cool… Well, let’s pretend that’s possible.

But no matter how good Lina is, she always has her pride. Ian savagely smashed it.

‘A pitiful bastard.’

Rina snatched her lunch box and turned her lights on.

“Hey, but Lina…”

I ignored his muttering.

— Bang!

Ian and I were the only two left anyway, so there was no eye to see.

I closed the classroom door as hard as I could.

Then I went up to the rooftop where I could be alone.

Lina sat down against the wall.

A lunch box given to me by an unlucky guy.

“…….”

But you have to eat.

If I don’t have this, I won’t have anything to eat today.

Dalgak. Opened lunch box

— I will always support you. I like you.

When she opened the lid, a side dish with an engraved phrase caught her eye.

“Sir.”

I was thinking of picking up the lunch box and throwing it away….

— Growl.

Lina carefully mashed the side dishes.

To the extent that not a single letter can be seen.

And then I ate.

“Ha…”

As she ate the lunch box, she was overcome with all sorts of emotions.

Ian had a slight crush when he first handed over the preparations. And the sense of betrayal she felt in the fact that she did it to anyone. Even now, I feel skeptical about myself who is eating this.

It was then that Lina’s kindness was punctured.

That hole was Ian Black Angus.

And a day later.

Ian jumped off the roof.

◆

In the week he was gone, all sorts of frivolous things passed by.

The vacancy felt great.

Because the desk, which was always full, was empty.

I was slowly hitting the limit.

The framework of her ‘goodness’ that confined herself has tightened her up as if it would suffocate her.

I hoped that someone would save me like this.

And one day.

— Drruck.

The classroom door opened and he returned.

I was surprised. I heard he was seriously injured. He thought there was no coming back.

At the same time, Lina had a hunch.

Ian has completely changed.

The first thing that has changed is the eyes.

They didn’t have confidence and looked even slightly servile.

‘…….’

It was infinitely cold. It was difficult to make eye contact.

— Rattle

And also the supplies and lunch boxes. There was nothing.

He doesn’t pay attention as if he completely forgot about the few days that had disappeared.

As if blaming Lena Roswell herself.

— That’s a very accurate answer. Cadet Ian!

— That’s a good approach. It’s creative. Please follow me for a while after class.

Standing out in class, being praised by professors, and getting good grades.

Then, even if they make eye contact, they avoid it and ignore it.

— Pounding

My heart suddenly beats at those eyes.

‘… What?’

I was embarrassed. Why? It’s definitely Ian to hate, right?

And then I realized.

Ian was no longer looking at Lina who was trapped in the frame of ‘goodness’.

She was cold and impassive, as if looking at Lina Roswell beyond.

She is Ian who liked her appearance more than anyone else.

In the eyes of sudden suspicion, rather, interest aroused.

Because Lina has been wishing for it. I hope someone will break this image of themselves someday.

‘… How are you?’

I was curious. Why did her Ian’s eyes suddenly change?

An opportunity came in the shadow forest practice.

I wanted to ask just the two of us as a team.

But things didn’t go well.

Rather, whispers have been heard since that day.

— If Ian does better than you, won’t he be pushed out of the scholarship?

The whispers skillfully manipulated the direction of emotions.

The emotions that I had pressed deeply to live kindly rose up.

Rage.

Jealousy.

Aggression.

Those feelings leaked through the hole in her heart.

Through the hole called Ian Black Angus.

— That’s the kid who betrayed you. And what about that will? Do you think he can be your savior?

Come to think of it, I originally hated Ian.

I hated him.

— Let’s get rid of it.

Nodded at the whisper.

I thought Ian could hate him.

◆

Lina woke up from her thoughts.

She looked around her.

All around is black.

It is still a space in consciousness.

“…….”

And then I realize.

She knew that what she had just experienced was like a kaleidoscope before she died.

My mind was organized like a lie.

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“After all, I didn’t want to be nice.”

It was so hard to be kind.

I squeezed all kinds of dark emotions into my heart.

Ian drilled a hole in it.

Then it exploded.

All emotions towards him. Even the feelings he didn’t build up.

In the process, I listened to the whispers.

The result is this situation.

I lost my temper with my hatred for Ian.

He pulled himself away from the whisper, and he’ll probably be dead soon.

“Ah…”

Ian was just the first button that wasn’t properly fitted.

If he first confessed,

— I really appreciate this, but your heart can’t accept it.

I wish I could have been more honest.

In the end, Lina herself was cowardly.

I needed preparations from Ian, I needed a packed lunch, and I needed him to take care of me.

So I couldn’t convey it in words, so I piled it up in my heart.

It became a small hole in her heart, and all sorts of negative emotions that she hadn’t been able to express came out through that hole.

Even if Ian doesn’t like it.

Lina poured out on him and was coping with her own.

“If you think about it…”

You have to realize it.

In the end, it was because Ian Black Angus was nicer than he was, maybe because he seemed a little easygoing, so he let go of his anger at him.

— Wake up Lena Roswell.

Ian’s voice came in a blur.

Is it an out-of-consciousness voice?

Suddenly, tears flowed from Lina’s eyes.

“… I want to live.”

I don’t want to die like this.

I want to go out and be more honest now.

So I want to talk to you, Ian, first.

“……Sorry.”

I took it for granted that you took care of me.

Because of ignoring you among countless people.

Unconsciously, he hated only you and attacked only you.

I’m so sorry.

Suddenly going crazy, hearing strange noises, feeling like something is wrong. I know I don’t need any excuses like that.

It’s just that what I had in my heart became stronger.

“…Because I’m a piece of trash.”

Because I was an idiot who pretended to be kind, being swept away by others like an idiot.

Anyway, Ian, who is kinder for no reason, is trash who took out his anger on you.

I’m not a very kind person.

I’ve always wished for it.

I wish someone would scold me like this.

I want you to correct it.

I want you to sternly push.

So.

“I wish I didn’t have to be stupid and nice.”

I know now, so I want to apologize.

Everly.

“… I’m sorry Ian. I’m sorry.”

And you must be punished.

Because I’m no longer the nice Lina Roswell.

“… Come on, you scold me.”

Because you did something bad, you deserve a punishment that hurts.

… ….

Tears flowed from Lina’s eyes.

“Please save me just once.”

And then I lean on Ian again.

To the extent that even oneself thinks that it is really shameless.

But did that wish come true?

The surroundings began to brighten like a ray of light descending into the deep sea.

Like being caught on a fishing hook,

Lina’s consciousness slowly rose.